did i just read the worst book of 2023 (+ its by a favorite author) 💫 book rant review (ya fantasy)

The twist in this book that we're  going to be talking about today.... What?! Hi everyone my name  is Cari. Is my microphone... All right. Hi, I am here as  promised with a video I don't - I wish I wasn't making. Also it is now  officially the season of "I need to turn off the air conditioner when I'm making my videos" and I'm  gonna get toasty, so if you see me start to sweat - don't say anything. Thank you. So today we  are going to be talking about one specific book. If you had told me so man

y things, if you  had talked to me in 2019, wouldn't believe you but if you had talked to my past  self saying that I would be making a video complaining? critiquing? being  immensely confused by? a Shea Ernshaw book, I would question you. I would be like hmm,  two truths in a lie? That one might be the lie. Guys... So before we dive into A Wilderness of Stars  which I read on my Kindle but just for visual sake... A little bit of background. Shea Ernshaw wrote  two young adult novels - standalon

e fantasies - that I really enjoyed. I think looking back maybe  I just - the reason people like her writing, the word that I see so often in reviews, both positive  and negative, is atmospheric. She picks up on these little details that when she writes them, suddenly  it just really brings whatever world she's trying to create, brings that to life. I just want to  put that out there that like she can write. I have loved her work. If you aren't new to  this channel you know that I've recommended

both The Wicked Deep and Winterwood in various  videos. I feel like this is maybe why I was so shocked by a Wilderness of Stars. So like I said,  The Wicked Deep and Winterwood, I enjoyed them both. They weren't like my absolute favorite books but  I thought that for standalone fantasies, I thought they did really well. And again that atmospheric  writing really drew me in. Recently she came out with her first adult fantasy called A History of  Wild Places. This one, I got what she was trying t

o do, I thought that she attempted something  interesting. And all of her books - this is now clear having read four of her books - she loves a twist.  She tries to set it up that she leads you towards thinking that it's gonna be twisted one way and  then she twists at the other. For someone who often reads thrillers, it's a little predictable,  but for someone who is, you know, reading a young adult fantasy and isn't expecting it, it could be  it could be fun. People feel both ways about the wa

y that she always throws in a twist. The twist in  this book that we're gonna be talking about today... What? I didn't see it coming and I did - I didn't  like it. So I'm gonna really quickly tell you what it's about without spoilers and then I will tell  you when we are entering spoiler territory and I'm literally just gonna go through the book and  tell you the plot so that someone else can read what I have read because... Here we go. In my words, what the plot is - it is a dystopian, not dyst

opian but definitely like a post-apocalyptic society.  We learned that our main girl who we follow whose name is Vega - can I  ever escape the name Vega? No. Their last name is Vega... Oh no. So I was like traumatized from the  first page. But anyway Vega has been raised just living with her mother in this valley and for  whatever reason, she's not allowed to leave. She has been raised with the knowledge that the outside  world is not safe. You can absolutely never leave unless something happens

. Vega and her mother are  astronomers so that "something" that happens is of course a movement of the stars that signifies  it's time for them to leave the valley. Within the very first chapter, that event occurs in the sky  and all we know is that we need to find someone called the Architect who is going to show us  to the ocean before these two stars, that are now on the horizon, before they move out of the  night sky which will happen in about maybe a month, maybe a couple weeks. So we gotta

get going  now. Also within the first chapter, Vega's mother passes away from consumption. And we learned  that consumption is a disease that has like ravished the whole world and we get the feeling  that it has also just like completely toppled society, civilization as we know it. And that  is it. That's about it that's all I can tell you without any spoilers. So let me look  at what Goodreads says - If magic lives anywhere, it's in the stars. And then in bold - an illness  cursing the land fo

rces a team girl astronomer to venture across the wilderness in search of the  stars message that will hopefully save them all. Really quickly, just off the top of my head, things  that bothered me about this that is not spoilery: Repetition. Oh my God. Every chapter we had  to hear about the tattoo. It wasn't giving us more information, it was just like "by the way,   girl has a tattoo on her neck" every chapter. It also kind of it stopped near like the middle of  the book but the beginning of

the book she used "river-____" to describe things. So like his  eyes were river-blue, they ran river-quick, you know? It was enough that it was really annoying me. And  also just everything happened really quickly. I mentioned this in my March wrap up but I felt like  we were missing pages of the book. She has been criticized for her kind of insta love in previous  books but this really felt like there was no emotion exchanged between the characters and then  all of a sudden we're just supposed

to like feel a connection? It was, it was bizarre. So we're gonna  go into it but just overall it felt like a first draft or maybe a second draft? And she mentioned  in her acknowledgments - let me actually read that. Thank you to my husband who talked to me  through the elements of this story with me when I was drafting it over the course of a single  month. The fastest I've ever written a novel. And it felt like it. It felt like this needed a lot  of cooking. Kind of the more that I learn abou

t the publishing world, the more that I realize  how much pressure authors have to constantly be producing. I wonder if this was perhaps a case  of that - of feeling the need to kind of produce a new book almost every year. I feel like this might  have been kind of a rush job. It made me really sad as a,as a big fan of Shea Ernshaw. So anyway let's  kind of go through it. This is the spoilery area. I'm gonna tell you the whole plot. I will say, it's  really interesting I told my friend this morn

ing - we went for like a cherry blossom walk, it was  very nice - I told her one of the twists at the end and she was like "that sounds amazing, oh my God, that sounds like a great book" and I was like "it could have been, it could have been" like it - ugh the  potential that I hold in my hands, is so - oh it's so sad. Here we go - A Wilderness of Stars. So we begin  and kind of every chapter begins with a flashback to the first astronomer. A hundred years ago the  first astronomer looked up at

the sky and made note of what she saw. She was not a Seer, a fortune  teller as was common in the old world. Instead she used the circular glass rings of her telescope  to make sense of the dark. She used physics and chemistry and science. Maybe if she had  believed in fate, if she had listened to her gut, she might have feared what she didn't understand.  She would have looked closer and seen. So I skipped a bit but like, okay right? I'm into it. The next  chapter, we are introduced to Vega who

is looking after her mother who is probably breathing her  last breath. She has been slowly dying of this disease that they call consumption. As her mother  lays sick in her bed, Vega goes up for some air and lays out on the roof looking up at the stars  where she feels most comfortable. And that's when she sees the two stars on the horizon. So she  runs down to her mother and is like "it's time" and her mom says "you gotta go" you know, "I can't  leave, you have to do it" and within the night,

she passes. She tells us very briefly but essentially  those two stars only come up on the horizon every 100 years and so if she misses this short window,  she will have to wait another 100 years and they absolutely cannot. We don't really understand that  it's for the cure but it's clearly like gonna save the world is what's going on, okay. The question  is how does she get out of the valley? Luckily her Pa comes home after a month on the road. Okay  so now all of a sudden we have a father fig

ure and he seems to be like a traveling salesman. They  don't seem super close. He seems like a nice guy but like it's not this like loving father figure.  He also is straight up like no, I'm not, your mom said you can never leave the valley, I can't help  you. And Vega is sworn to secrecy - her and her mom are not allowed to talk about the stars so she  can't straight up be like Pa, I gotta go chase those stars and like find blah blah you know?  When he says like a hard no, what does she do? Bu

rns down her house. She burns down the house so  that her Pa has to take her in the wagon with him to go sell his magic potions. Okay? So off we  go into the villages. Once we get to some of the villages, we learn that consumption is spreading  all over and has been spreading. There are so many just abandoned towns, complete families are  just dying overnight. Whatever her Pa is selling is like healing painkiller potion. It's not a cure  but like it's gonna do something hopefully maybe. It's - y

ou get the feeling that like he's sort of  like a snake oil salesman and I'm pretty sure he calls himself that. But he still seems like he's kind of a nice guy, like he gives some of it away for free, you know, to people who really need it.  But you're still just like confused by the world. It also feels really old-timey - like they are  using wagons, they don't have electricity - but there are these comments made randomly that give  you the feeling that this is like in the future. So they'll ta

lk about like cities or I don't think  they say TV but they say something similar to that that makes you feel like this isn't taking place  in the past, this is taking place in our future where society has completely collapsed which I  think is really cool, like I kind of enjoyed the beginning setup of this and I was really on board  to figure out what was going on. Okay. And so in in this time that she is beginning to travel,  what she needs to do is find the Architect who has some kind of know

ledge of how to get to the  sea - as if no one else knows how to get to the sea. The only problem is, she can't just straight  up ask people because that's going to make people suspicious + they're gonna find out that she's an astronomer. We don't know immediately why this needs to be a secret but we soon find out - essentially there are like a couple different cults or gangs, whatever you want to call them,  of people that believe in different ways that we're gonna cure consumption, right? And

there  is one particular group called The Theorists who think that the astronomer is the cure and they  want to capture her. I don't really know like what did they want to do with her. Obviously she's  also trying - I don't know like this just didn't really make sense. So anyway they have like this  branding on them, like they burn themselves to be marked as Theorists, whatever. She has her tattoo  on her neck. Eventually they get to one town and she decides that she needs to run away. Like  she

can't just keep putzing around with Pa selling these potions. She needs to get the show  on the road. So she kind of abandons her Pa in the middle of the night, which it didn't seem that  emotional for her okay? Also we learned that he's not her biological father, we don't know who  that is. She escapes into the night and she makes a quick pit stop at a saloon to try and  gather some information and her tattoo is exposed, Theorists find her and they start chasing her, she  is saved by a girl na

med Cricket and they run off into the wilderness. And like a few pages later,  they are united with the Architect. How easy was that? What page is that? So pretty much a third of  the way through the book, there we go. Step one, we find the Architect. wWe also meet a boy named Noah  who you immediately know is the love interest. He steps forward through the shaft of golden light,  his features come into view. Dark as night hair swept to one side, eyes lidded against the slanted  sun, skin a warm

copper but there's no warmth in his gaze. His green river-deep eyes sliding from  my face down to my boots. He is very suspicious of Vega. Like, Cricket is like look what I found and  he's like what the [ __ ] is this. But Cricket is like no, you guys told me to find her. I found  her! And Vegas like who the f - like why did you need to find me, what are you talking about? Cricket  has also been on the lookout for the astronomer so everybody is basically just trying to get to Vega  first and Cr

icket I guess seems nice so maybe it's okay? Another other weird thing that we find out is  the potions that her Pa was selling - it's actually literally just watered down aspirin mixed with  water so she has like randomly like up a bottle of aspirin and she like hands out pills throughout  the book because they don't have aspirin anymore. I don't know. So anyway once Noah looks at her and  gets her heart all like pitter-patter, he is like okay she checks out, she looks like the astronomer,  let

's take her to the Architect. Then she just gets brought into this camp or barn or whatever, meets  the Architect, within a few seconds of speaking to the Architect, the Theorists who were chasing her  and Cricket catch up to them and kill everybody. Everyone. Probably 50 children and this Architect  and it really didn't seem that emotional. Cricket and Noah help Vega escape so they are the only  three survivors of this attack but Cricket is angry for a little bit that her like found  family has

been killed. Noah we soon learn was like practically raised by the Architect like  he is the Architect's apprentice. He also doesn't seem that shaken by this. No one seems to care  that there was like a mass killing. And so now that like everyone has died, we've abandoned Pa  who we never see again, the Architect and all of the kids are dead - we have to keep running because  the Theorists are still chasing us. So Vega, Cricket and Noah run into the wilderness. They end up  running through the

desert. Cricket it seems to be sick, we think that she also has consumption  so Vega just keeps giving her lots of aspirin and that's a detail that's in the plot  a lot. And we get like a a couple like a very few conversations between Noah and  Vega but it seems like the attraction - it's not even attraction like I don't know how to  describe how it's written. It's almost like you know that they're supposed to fall in love but  you don't actually see it on the page. They talk to each other, we l

earned that because the  Architect was killed, Noah becomes the Architect so he is the last Architect and she is the last  astronomer and so they are like destined to meet. His entire life revolves around protecting her  and getting her to the sea and saving the world. It doesn't feel like love, it feels like this guy is  obsessed with the fate of like - the only meaning in his life is to take care of her. It really doesn't  feel feel romantic, it just kind of feels like duty and like a teenager

thinking that that duty equals  love. And same with Vega, like she really likes his eyes, she likes that he says that he will burn  down the world for her, but like that's it. They don't actually have any chemistry and they  don't interact that much to be honest. And then just a couple pages later we have a betrayal  that doesn't seem like that big of a betrayal. We get to some kind of lake or something and  they decide to have a bath so Noah strips down and we see that he is also covered in ta

ttoos - they  don't actually mean anything, he literally just had a friend who liked to tattoo him and so he's  covered but the thing that sets Vega off is he has the burn marking of a Theorist and so she goes  into this whole thing of like how can I ever trust you, I've been betrayed. And it seems like such  a huge deal but like he says that he abandoned - he's not one of them anymore and he abandoned them  and like all of his actions thus far have been to help her and to burn down the world fo

r her and  you can't get rid of like a branded, like a burnt scar. What's he supposed to do chop off his arm?  Like I don't know, so that is really weird. She acts like this boy that she is so deeply in love  with just betrayed her but like they have had no chemistry for the past 60 pages that we have  seen them together and it was the weirdest setup. Turns out he was a Theorist because his father  was a Theorist and so he was kind of born into it and eventually his best friend gets killed becau

se  they were trying to leave this cult and once that happened he was like no I'm like the anti-Theorist,  I am the Architect here to protect you. We're gonna save the world. Cricket does nothing. Cricket is  just around and is sick. They don't communicate, they never talk, it's it's bizarre. Like I can't -  I wish, I don't want you to read this book but like if you did, that's the only way to get  it. It's - it was the weirdest thing. But then after that whole 'this is the worst  betrayal of my

entire life' - three pages later she basically is like we are faded lovers,  he's familiar in ways I can't explain, and I know I will follow him to the sea, to the  edge of everything. I will follow him anywhere. I'm so sorry that this is boring, I want to  get to the twist but you'd kind of need this information. We know that she is also still hiding  her like astronomer knowledge from him. Like she's not supposed to even tell the Architect so she's  really pissed that he didn't tell her that

he's an ex-Theorist but she's still holding some big  secrets that we also don't know right? So keep that in mind. She quickly gets kidnapped, the Theorists  catch up to her, she gets out pretty quickly, Noah rescues her. Noah tries to kill the main guy - the  like head of the Theorist who turns out to be his father who he already tried to kill beforehand. So  he like stabbed his father a couple years ago now he stabbed his father a bunch of times again so  we're like maybe this time it worked.

His father's unkillable, his father lives through like multiple  stabbings just so you know. And then they finally finally finally make it to the sea. Cricket has  peaced out by the way, she is like go on without me bye. Not an emotional goodbye, like we don't give  a [ __ ] just like we don't give a [ __ ] about Pa, right? We are at 90% - we have made it to the  sea. Okay. After pretty much nothing happens. She gets like she's just being chased the whole time  and we don't really make any emoti

onal connections but allegedly she is like Star-Crossed faded  in love with Noah even though it really doesn't feel like it okay. When we get to the sea what she  needs to do is find the ship. Ship is not there. Okay. The only place they think the ship could  be is off on this island that is like swimming distance but like neither of them swim so they're  about to start swimming when the [ __ ] Theorists and the dad that can't die show up on the beach  behind them. The father, who is named Holt,

Holt grabs Noah and is like "I'll kill him unless you  (Vega) go to the ship and" I don't know. Like it just doesn't make sense. Basically Holt used to be  friends with the architect and so he knows like more than he should, like more than the average  person. He knows how to get to the sea, he knows about the ship, and so he's basically like  you're going to get the ship ready and I'll board it and we'll find the cure? I don't know like it  just doesn't make sense. So she has to go swim off wi

thout Noah, followed by like one of the Theorists  lackeys right? So again we're still as the reader completely in the dark. We don't know either. So  she starts looking around the island for this ship and she finds it under the sand. We very  soon realize it's not the ship we're picturing. Basically she's like looking through the sand and  then her hand touches something smooth, not a rock, something else, something man made. A rectangle of  bent metal. I try pulling it upward but it doesn't bu

dge. They finally get the door open which, again,  I was thinking of like a pirate ship right? What kind of pirate ship has a giant metal door? They  get the door open and her fingers find the rung of a ladder. I climbed down 6 feet then 12 until  I finally reached the bottom. She finds a table. I move closer, squinting, trying to see it and run my  palm over the surface. A ripple of light shivers across my vision. It's not like candlelight  flickering and uneven - the light glows softly from al

l corners, pale and muted. She's talking  about electricity. And she is in a spaceship. In this spaceship there is one small lifeboat  slash escape pod that can only hold one person. And that is what she was supposed to do, that is  the secret that she has been keeping from Noah. Is that she is supposed to get on this ship alone,  her knowledge of astronomy is going to guide her somewhere and she's going to escape into the stars  without Noah. She was always going to leave him. She found the shi

p so now she needs to go  back to Holt to make sure that he doesn't kill Noah even though they're all gonna die anyway  apparently right? So like why didn't she just leave? I take a step into the cold sea water, my body  already shaking and I wade out into the deep. Just as the rain stops falling, just as  everything becomes strangely stilled. My mind reorganizing itself, trying to  understand. Do you want to know what has been causing the consumption? What has  been creeping ever closer to thei

r world? a black hole. So as the astronomer, the thing  that she saw, the very first astronomer - she's looking up at the stars, trying to track all  of these things, when she sees a giant spot of the sky missing stars. And she sees that  it is beginning to grow. And so over the past 100-ish years a black hole has been coming ever  closer. It has arrived. It is about to swallow the world starting with the rain apparently. What?  Like does any of this make sense - are you guys following this at a

ll? She manages to swim  back to shore but then the black hole scoops up all of the ocean water so now they're  just there's no sea. She runs back to Holt, she grabs Noah. Holt is like what the hell is  happening? While Holt is witnessing a black hole eating the world around him, Noah and Vega  make a run for it to the ship. To the ship that only has one seat. And Noah still doesn't know  any of this. Noah has been standing on the shore expecting what we might have expected - a pirate  ship, I d

on't know. Noah still doesn't know [ __ ] right? Noah rightfully so asks - what's happening?  Vega explains: The shadow in our sky is a black hole, I tell him. It's killing us, it's always  been killing us. Moving closer to our planet every year, every hour, making us sick. Creases  form between Noah's eyebrows. But what is this? His eyes flash down to the silver gleaming ship.  Buckle your seatbelts. I force myself to take a breath, knowledge threading through the very center  of my bones. The

ship our ancestors arrived on. He only blinks at me, needing more, needing  to understand, while the sky rips open above us. They came from up there, I say pointing  into the dark. From a planet - called Earth. This book has not taken place on planet Earth.  We are on an alien planet okay? So he says I don't understand, what happens now? And she says  we have to get into the ship - the lifeboat is only meant to hold one person but I think we'll  both fit, we have to try. Noah is like what the he

ll is a lifeboat? She says - the other colony,  the lifeboat will take us to the other colony. To which he says where?!!!! To another planet,  orbiting two twin suns, but if we don't go now it will be too late. So basically something horrible  happened on Earth, it doesn't matter okay? What they do is they send out two different groups of  people to colonize two different planets okay - they get to the one that's being eaten by a [ __ ]  black hole and the other one we're assuming is gonna be fi

ne and dandy right? So how she's going  to save the world is she's going to get on this rocket ship, fly to the other colony where they're  gonna somehow be able to help them bring ships to her black hole colony, take the people from there  and bring them to the other colony. You don't have time girlfriend! Vega is telling us that she barely  has time to get on board this rocket ship before we are sucked into a black hole. Why does she  think that she can somehow still go and get help you know?

Like she told us in the beginning,  Shea Ernshaw told us the goal of let's get to the sea. So like once we got to the sea, we have  less than 100 pages left of the book and all of a sudden we're being info dumped. It's supposed to be  a twist but it's like this massive info dump where all of a sudden we learn the next two steps of how  to save the world but like it doesn't seem like those steps make sense. Like we learn about it in  the sense of like oh we're supposed to do this but we were out

of time, we came too late, oops let's  still give it a go! And then also it doesn't feel like there's a lot of people - this is gonna sound  horrible but like it doesn't sound like there's a lot of people left. It seems like the only people  still alive are these evil Theorists chasing us. I don't care honestly, like as a reader I don't care  about saving anybody. It, you know? Like it just - it was the weirdest thing. I get that this was  supposed to be a really big twist but it just is so stup

id. So they're about to get in the lifeboat  together when the father that doesn't [ __ ] die shows up again and is like take me with you. And  sure as hell three people are not fitting in this lifeboat right? So Noah sacrifices himself to try  and kill his dad again - he's basically like I love you, I'll never forget you, and then like throws  himself and his dad out into the black hole-ness. Okay. Vega gets in the lifeboat and flies off  into space seconds before the black hole swallows everyt

hing. We've still got five percent of the  book left. She's off in the ship right and she's thinking thoughts and she says - I reached the ship  too late and now I wish I'd never left. I should have been the one to stay, to die,to sacrifice  myself. It should be Noah on this ship, someone brave who can survive. And I hate myself for it. Now  I'm the only one left and the rot inside me feels more than I can bear. I feel nothing, only the ache  that twists around my heart. I've lost everything. Sh

e gets to the other colony which seems to be  doing pretty okay. She meets someone there who's like "hey girl, where'd you come from?" and she's like  "yeah my colony - I'm from the other colony. We just got eaten by a black hole." They're like "oh yeah  do you mean the shadow in the sky? We got one too!" So now Vegas like well [ __ ] and their - the  colony number two's astronomer drowned a long time ago? So they don't know anything about  this sky. They just know that there's a big hole. She d

ecides that it is her calling now  that she is going to stay on colony number two and help them with their black hole so she  goes to the old astronomer who has drowned's house looks at his notes and he also has notes  about black holes. And she reads something that makes her think that she can time travel? It's  unclear but she's basically like "oh hey if we fly back to my planet, if we somehow get through  the black hole, fly back to my planet, they might have survived and I might be able to g

o get my boy  back." Hoping that his dad hadn't killed him right? And so that's what we're gonna do. I don't know  it was just so bad. How do - what's the, this is the last paragraph. I swing my gaze upward, force my  eyelids back and look up at the altered sky. If our lives are stories written in the stars, then I will  find him again, just like before. The astronomer and the architect, fated like Perseus and Andromeda.  I will map the sky and make new marks on my skin. Black ink to chart the w

ay. I will find Noah just  like I always was meant to. My path woven into the starlight, braided into my bones, just like  every woman before me. Our story is not done yet. So like there are these moments where the writing  is really good but like what the [ __ ] was that plot. There is no - oh I'm just so upset. Hi everyone,  it's a little bit later and I have finished editing the whole video but I realized I wanted  to put in some more notes because I just kind of was tired out after telling y

ou the plot and  I didn't - I have like a couple more things to say. I looked at the Goodreads reviews as well to kind of  like gather my thoughts about this. Number one, I knew, I knew something was wrong but I didn't  know what it was but just like the simple matter of physics and how a black hole works. I don't know  much about physics so that didn't really bother me but what did bother me and what other people  pointed out, someone actually said this more succinctly than I did but the first

thing that  bothered me is that they keep stressing that this like 100 year period is a really long time.  You could know your grandmother or your great grandmother, like that's kind of of just three  maybe four generations. It's not a huge chunk of time for people to have completely forgotten  where they came from. I will say that the reason that they need to keep everything a secret  is because the first astronomer mentioned her findings and was kind of persecuted because people  thought she w

as crazy but I feel like as things got more chaotic, you could make the judgment call  of like 'hey I trust these people, I can tell them my secrets' you know? And then on top of that this  is the thing that really bothered me and this is something that a reviewer actually pointed  out and I will read - she put bullet points and this is one of her bullet points. "Really annoyed  by how naive and unprepared Vega was. I feel like if you have a hundred years to prepare you'd have  a go bag ready. Y

ou'd have gotten some horses to travel on. You wouldn't just burn your house down  and walk away without food or a canteen." And yeah like if they have, if they they know that these  stars come back every 100 years, you should have a backpack ready to [ __ ] go, like you could have  put certain plans in place to make this a hell of a lot easier and also just going back to the whole  burning down her house thing - she basically only takes two actions the whole time. Number one, she  burns down he

r house and then number two she runs away from Pa. That's at the 25% mark. From there  until ninety percent of the book, all she does is follow Cricket, follow Noah, get kidnapped,  get rescued. That's it. She just like exists and they keep walking towards the sea for like 80%  of this book. It's - she does nothing. And so so Shea Ernshaw tries to stuff in Vega doing all of  this amazing stuff at the end but it just sounds - it was just so - it ugh. I think that she really wrote  this, she kind

of like had the twist ready and she wrote the book just so that she could write  the twist and didn't actually put any work into making us like any of the characters, like I  couldn't - there's, they don't stand out whatsoever. It was an emotionless book. I have just never read  a book quite like that where the characters are so not even there. So I'll let you get back to the  video but if you've read it, yeah just please let me know, because I'm just shocked by this book. Now that I'm done film

ing this, I realized that like I didn't explain it well and this might be very  boring for you guys so I'm sorry that this wasn't like a funny what the [ __ ] video that I usually  make but like I just wanted to explain the plot and if any of you guys have read it, please  let me know because I'm just - I can't believe that this came from the same author. And I can't  believe she's gonna make this into a series. I'm just really upset about it because it had so many  elements that were so good an

d like I said, I told my friend about the whole like plot twist 'they're  not on Earth' thing and like it sounds good, like it has so much potential and it just was so bad.  Please please please let me know your thoughts down below. I know that this video isn't going to  perform well and I'm really sorry that I couldn't make it any better. I'm just so bummed. So anyway,  right after this I read Weyward by Emilia Hart and that was quite a bit better. And it made me  feel good so - well it didn't

make me feel good, it's very dark and very sad but like it made me  feel better in terms of like reading a good book. So maybe go read that or just don't - just  please talk to me down below, please talk to me. I want to know your thoughts. It felt very like kind of like the Host, you know? It made me feel the same way that like Stephanie Meyer's The  Host did and I don't know why because they're very different but like it gave me those same  weird feels. I don't know. But anyway that's all I ha

d to say, I don't - I just needed, I needed  to talk it out so thank you for being here if you were here till the end. I hope you're reading  good things, give me some recommendations down below, I need them. And I will see you guys next  time, okay? Thanks for listenin. Bye!