just hook myself up and let me clean off this camera I just decided I'm gonna go live let me
turn this down so it all pop on me hey y'all had to give it the full air for it let
me see if I got some tissue already now there's the wedge because
I want to clean off this land and see on again after lens because you know
I actually lands can really make you think you're not looking good out here gonna
multi-purpose this tissue here let's do this I understand I'm like let me just go on
Live and
Let Me adjust this lighting too let me just go online and let me move you up that's what it is Gotta
Move yeah so you're not like right in my face put out there put it in the comments hey y'all I just
decided I'm gonna go on live if I'm cooking and I am healthy uh because this is what I had left
I mean the thing is I don't cook bad but I had went to New Orleans for three weeks
and the Lord showed my mama a site that I could you know it's called trusted house center where
you could get someb
ody to you know people need to stay they visit in California or they need to come
and see so they will pet sit for you so they can have like a place to stay and you know it's all
background checks or whatever so uh my mama had got me the membership there and this girl came
and she was just so good with the dogs and I just I'm just so happy about that because I just
did not want to be worried about my dogs when I'm gone for three weeks but I didn't I could not
take them with me did not want
to leave them because didn't want to I mean to leave them with
the Doggy Daycare because that's my friends and they charge and you know the thing is I want to
leave them with my friends when I get like pay the full fee I don't want to be like leaving
them more work and then and I need a discount child because I already know the word because
I was working for my friends before I left um so now oh that salmon looks so good that came
it's turned out so good and I'm talking about it is perfect
it looked like a restaurant
salmon I'm gonna have to show it to y'all let me show you there's the restaurant they
got my spinach right there that I'm about to let cook all the way down and then I just
made some like cauliflower you know there's cauliflower rice I think I'm a um I think
I'm gonna stick some corn up in there because um you know you got all these like healthy
substitutes but it don't matter if I'm not like enjoying the substitute like I gotta be like
enjoying the foods anyway
um so I had went to the ones for three weeks then the girl who watched
my dogs when she was leaving she was like I'm not going to be able to even use all this stuff is
this something you feel late and you'll use that she had all like all this stuff from Trader Joe's
you know uh kale which I finally ate yesterday um spinach which I'm fixing now but you know the
thing about spinach is if I I can do spinach and like a salad but I can't really do spinach
and um I can't really do spinach and li
ke no uh you know just like regular spinach
because spinach be having that like you know but then I just thought about hey middy's
here guy what's going on hey mids here God hey um so anyway um I can't really do spinach
either like cooked spinach like you know the smell of it doesn't appease me but when
I was looking at this spinach I thought about spinach and artichoke dip and the
girl left me some Parmesan cheese and also I had marinated in this thing right here
in this like glass contai
ner I had marinated some hot peppers and onions some jalapeno peppers and
onions and it's like already like pickle sauce or it was already like some jalapenos up in here so I
marinated it all for like weeks so I put that in a spinach and now I'm like oh spinach you is about
to cook down and see you have no water in you in it I'm gonna run out here and get me a Tostito
and I'm gonna sprinkle some cheese I've been used and yep I'm gonna have some spinach and artichoke
dip well I ain't even go
nna have the artichokes oh hopefully the store will have some like artichokes
but you know what that's like no problem you know the the artichoke part I could just run a
Trader Joe's up the street and get artichokes but um you know I think I'm gonna
take like a little of the spinach out because it's really it's like I can't have it like
so soupy like you know kale one thing about kale Chow it takes so much to get kale um it thinks I'm
about to get killed to like soften that naturally it jus
t drinks up all the water where it's like
spinach can can tend to be like a little soupy so and I'm like and let me put some of this on my
salmon too because I like a little pickle taste like you know I'm a pickle taste girl I'll
have everything pickled in a minute you know I went to get my I went to the grocery store I had a random deposit this morning like
y'all life is great life is great because I'm deciding it's great I think that's gonna
be the whole purpose of this video you know I w
as earlier I was in the store and I had my
dogs with me and I was trying to go to the bank because I just took one of the sectors
of my business and formed a new business um because I wanted because it has enough income
coming in on its own that it just needs to be its own entity so I just formed a new business um and
I was waiting to open the account at the bank and first it said eight o'clock you know well first
I assumed it was eight o'clock but it was like 8 30 when I got there then the
thing said nine so I
was like all right let me go to the 99 cent store and get you know a couple of things I need to get
then I went to the 99 cent store so I was like all right I'm gonna come back at nine and then when
I came back at nine I tried to go in the bank and then I saw a sign that says we opened at 10
so I was like all right well let me I had to go to this other store and get something and then
I had the dogs and you know my my dogs with me and I was thinking like I I think one
of the
dogs was like whining so that's probably what was injecting some like you know some of
the anxiety up in me but I found myself you know my first appointment wasn't until like
one o'clock I found myself like feeling you know those those Rush feelings like you know
I'm just like I'm in the house and I'm like come on come on come on come on let's go let's
go you know you know even the span of speech and for what like I was like I don't even I'm not
even rushing off to anywhere and I th
ink that's you know I made this video on Instagram where I
was like what am I rushing for like I gotta stop and smell the tick tock videos I feel like you
know I don't even I didn't even have a purpose or hurrying I could have taken my time I could
have been reading things in the grocery store like I could have really enjoyed the experience
but I'm so used to be you know so used to working on the deadline now what I'm glad about is
I have been limiting the the the tasks to do like you know
I had a part-time job I left that
part-time job because I'm like I don't know how to like halfway dedicate myself to anything
I dedicate my my whole self to everything so that's why I'm like nah I gotta I gotta get it
if I'm gonna dedicate myself to anything it's gonna be all the things I'm doing but even with
the things I'm doing I'm taking off you know the unnecessary tasks you know I don't want
like you know even with stand up I'm like okay I'm gonna let the gigs come to me and I'm
gonn
a make sure to check my ego and my Envy to make certain that I'm not looking on social
media and I'm like oh they working here let me call to see if I can work it because that's
like unnecessary like just just Lord send me a gig here and let the Lord just handle that part
because you know I really am trying to focus my efforts on where they were where they account
and I just released a song and it requires a lot of like research you know little uh
webinars I'll be taking you know I'm also u
m you know just going through this like business
program to like increase myself as a business you know learn how to be a mogul because you know
you you can happen stance into your mobile dump or you can intend on being a mogul and you can
like straight you know take classes to become it build the knowledge of it learn the text
break send the money breaks and the how you need to set yourself up so like that's what I'm
doing right now and I have to dedicate my time to those things you know m
y marketing my business
classes and of course I still have shows at night and that is like in addition to like auditions
that come through but even with my auditions that come through now listen here I will go on the
site um and look at auditions that are coming you know uh for those of y'all who join I'm talking
about like streamlining my time of what I am spending it on but anyway right now because I am
trying to make sure that my time is streamlined um what I'm doing with the auditions i
s I go and
I check and see what's out there and I just decide before I even apply is this a role that I want is
this something that I want and if I don't like if I'm not like yeah I can sink my teeth into that I
just don't even worry about applying to it because you know sometimes we apply to it like oh just
click everything you know that's how I was doing before just click every little thing that's
you know in my category but then you know I may have so many of them that come through and i
n
my category and some of them I don't even want so like you know I want to make certain that I'm
I have the time to stop and smell the roses I make the time to stop smelling the roses and this
is and it's not because you know in this and it's it's taking away all of the other things that
take away from the rose smelling time you dig um so anyway so I've been in here uh feeling
real peaceful you know what another thing too is I've been waking up in the morning um I got
I'm telling you I go
t a lot you know some people will use the Expression spiritual attack I was not
spiritually attacked the other night I attacked myself that's why I'm on like you know I just
enter myself I'm having like a social media diet we have um that Spirit turned out good um
okay I might not even need too much outside see that's how I need the spinach I need for it
to be cooked down thank you so much for my life I need for this to be like hooked down
like greens like you know when spinach be like real
like you know how like you
order spinach at a restaurant and they'd be like you know it'd be a dark leafy
green but then you'd be like where is this like in fact I gave some spinach
to my grandma you know who is 89 and she was like where is this grass on my plate
because that's exactly how spinach we taste I need to cook that so that's what I would have
to do for my grandma I have to cook it down like this um but anyway back
to like me attacking myself um oh my word that turned out so goo
d I don't
need no chips I don't need nothing oh that turned out so good um I could taste the peppers I could
taste the onions I can taste the like pickling oh spinach me and you about to be
better friends than I thought um come to find out I can't go out on a couple
days with you spinach back to attacking myself the other night I performed at The Improv
right before I went on stage I opened up my um opening my Instagram I'm gonna
open up my Facebook and my homegirl was like one of her song
s you know got in the
grand you know first round of the Grammys child I saw that now a Grammy is what I want for my
song Oh I need some water oh my God I'm gonna win yeah um I saw my homegirl for your consideration
you know with the gravy now I want to Grammy for my song you know as soon as I saw that I closed
it out I was like this is amazing because you know of course I'm happy for my homegirl but
it's that compare and despair that had just inserted into my soul I allowed it to enter
int
o my soul like this time I can honestly say it was not Satan honey it was all me it was
like what like Satan was over across town doing whatever he do it was all me I was like I'll
take your place saying I will attack myself I got on stage I you know I just stand
up and I sing so I did some stand up did some singing performance was like downright
electric you would have thought that I came on stage and people threw like tomatoes at me how
I got off and that was the only thing on my mind the
n I was thinking about the Grammy then the
headliner that went up after me hey Darko Darko um the headliner that went up after me you know he
was like killing it now everybody was like killing it on the show but then immediately I looked at
him and I was just like tag I need to work on myself now I had just had a great performance like
and I'm talking about people was walking up to me telling me how much I appreciate they appreciated
my performance but you can compare and despair you can re
ally attack Yourself by trying to
compare your journey to someone else hey Derek and I just had to come home and I just had to sit
on my couch and turn no TV on no radio on I just had to sit on my couch and repent the spirit of
compare it and despair off of myself then I had to ask the Lord for forgiveness and then I had to sit
on that couch in complete silence and realize that I've lost like like in comedy we didn't lost like
so many people in comedy like so to just be alive is like a supe
r huge blessing so if you're if I'm
meeting when I say you're I'm talking about me if I'm now taking the time to worry about anything
else except for the hugest blessing which is to be alive honey I got to check myself and that's
exactly what I had to do I had to go back to the basics and just be like Lord thank you so much
for these feet Lord thank you for my hands like Lord thank you that I can walk Lord thank you so
much Lord that I could like cook myself something to eat Lord let like t
hat that bills are paid like
you know as artists sometimes you you want all of this money but you forget that every bill is being
paid like that he's sending the money in and I just had to take it back to the basics and really
keep thinking like keep reflecting on how good life is now a lot of times comparing the sphere
with what happens is we forget the crown the cross that the other person that we're looking at had to
carry you know what I mean in order to get those blessings then compare
and despair also makes us
forget the cro the crown that we're carrying ciao and now keep in mind it was only temporary but I
did go outside and I was talking to people like you know people was just like I mean you're just
so talented you have you know you could do comedy you could do music I mean you know they were just
singing the Praises and all I could do was confess to them how I wish I could only do one so it
could just put me closer to the thing because I'm thinking about what I comp
are myself to Chow
it was I was going through it and going through it all because of right here you know what I'm
saying psychology the compare despair mentality soon as I started being like and for the longest
time when I got home I had to like I had to really work to shake it off you know when depression
or bad feelings come you know those are not of the Lord and you do have to work to get it off
and I work to get it off by just being like Lord thank you so much and that's why today I'm f
eeling
like a million dollar like just to be alive just to be able to research just so many things have
happened because as soon as we're not feeling good the blessings stop you know what I mean
so I don't want my blessings to stop because my joy has stopped so I'm like no I will not
know and that's where I have to rebuke Satan but trying to feed me things you know
after I'm trying to rebuke it you know I'm telling you it's like working on yourself
that's why I don't understand when people
like me messing with other people like because
working on yourself is just such a full-time job you know what I mean it's just like like
I mean working for myself is a full-time job but working on myself is like times ten like I
can just I can just work all day on myself yeah you know what I have to do is
I have to stand my salmon up in the pot because I want to get them sides cooked I gotta set look how good that salmon looks look
how the you know one thing about any food when you cook it
slow it's gonna be delicious like that
slow cooked I mean when I say slow I mean slow and being attentive okay when you cook it slow it's
gonna be delicious like this is it's really why I'm working so hard to get my residual income in
you know because once you get this P you know the the the you know and I and keep in mind thank you
Lord that I do have residual income coming in but I'm striving for more residual income to come in
so that you know how you get paid in your sleep so because I
just like these are the things
that I really like enjoy like I really you know when I went to New York for like three weeks
or like two weeks you know last earlier this year um was it earlier this year or was it last
year but anyway when I went to New York um oh it was earlier this year I cooked the most
delicious gourmet meals for my mama like every single day because I didn't have that worry
you know what I mean like I knew everything was gonna be all right I had groceries I had
gigs I
was there because I had booked to roll and I just was in like La La Land in the kitchen
because you know loving to cook for my mama show her all the like Gourmet little things alkaline
thing you know in New York I can focus on the alkaline I can really live an alkaline lifestyle
New York like New York is one of the places where I could definitely see myself like moving back
to because of the simple things like the train accessibility although I probably wouldn't even
be catching the train l
ike that if I did move back to New York but maybe because I'm a walker
like I love walking I love having my car parked but then also too you can live I feel like
I can live the healthier lifestyle because of those fruit stands like you know you know
getting off the train to go to my mama's house at 2 A.M I could stop at a Fruit Stand and get
like a papaya and a mango like oh I could get all alkaline foods in at 2 A.M so it's like
I'm not even tempted to be like all right let me just pick up
some chips from the center
like I literally could get like great food and um and didn't wake up in the morning and have
that to eat or prepare it at night before I went to bed beans and all the rest of the stuff
because the fruit stands are open late there um but this this is this is the lifestyle that
I love living I love being in my own kitchen figuring out what flavors are good I'm telling
you it like and I'm one of them people that I cook every single like I cook every single day
you
know um thank you so much Darko I cook every single day because I love it you know what
I'm saying and I love being in the kitchen um like I love the fact that my refrigerator
every single thing gets used up like I'm not a person that's like I need to throw
that away from five months ago like I don't have none of that like everything
I got like one sweet potato left I got lemons up in here that oh I need to take a
lemon out and squeeze it on this sandwich I'm telling you I use every everyth
ing
gets used up in here every single thing no uh and in fact I just missed the deadline on some
raspberries and I was upsetting that because you know raspberry shower you gotta basically
as soon as you pay for the raspberries you got to take them in the car and eat that they
be gone bad fast laughs they be gone bad fast I just squeezed this lemon on my salmon and
I'm about to turn this salmon on the other side so I can get that it could cook on the side one thing about um my homegirl showe
d
me she because she used to use lime when she cooked her salmon and if you know the
the lemon and the lime but especially the lime it really adds a good texture it's
like a good crisp it's such you know it makes it that that front of the salmon
like a good crisp all over top of it and you know it just it just adds that
oomph and the salmon presume you know uh yeah y'all just getting this joint nice
and cooked well I need to turn the stove off and guess what all my water you said um
top u
m all my water is out of this spinach all my what is I just finished so I could turn
it off and I'm talking about I don't need no but I I still am probably gonna get me some um
well I don't know let me taste it because this thing is just good like it is and if I could
keep from eating chips and cheese I'ma do that oh yeah um that needs no chips no cheese I just I just
came up with the best spinach recipe of all time let me show y'all the spinach um all the water to cook down
see it looked j
ust like green but you see them white things that's the seeds and onions the seeds and the onions from
the peppers and you know that mixture I tell you I had a pickle mixture of I put
some onions and some peppers and some jalapenos juice and just soaked them because
those ones are like regular like jalapenos and now I'm just cooking the side of the salmon see look look at that side of the salmon see
I need all my salmon cooked you know sometimes salmon you know it's a mild meat but it's it
could be Bland but see that's why I turned it to the side see how the side get cooked like
that and she had that see that perfect Grill honey that's all Mama wanna do I mean this ain't
all I want to do like 45 other things but this is the one thing I value in quality in life and this
is another reason why I'm so glad to be taking my business classes because like I know exactly like
who I would need to hire like when I get the money like the whole purpose of the business program is
to fund y
ou at the end with the money you need and through the programs that I've been taking because
I've been in classes for like months of doing business coaching for like months but like through
these programs I have if somebody would have given me some money like you know maybe six months
ago I would have so lowballed myself on what I needed like I would have been like oh I just
need like you know 25 no I need like 150 000 like literally like to hire people that work for you
because like I have
some tasks that are just like overwhelming you know what I overwhelming I don't
want to use that word but I'm talking about I have some tasks that requires some straight focus and
I know what I would need to hand off to a person um that they could do because you know these
things just require people you know and that's why I work all the time ciao and luckily I've
been giving me a couple of days you know um here recently because you know as a woman I mean
as a human being we require connec
tion like you know I don't want to just be one night stand hot
and heavy with somebody you know I'm celibate so um I ain't even worried about the sexual aspect
of it because I want to just literally hold off until I meet my husband I mean until
I actually have a husband not I meet a husband but like the only way I'm annoyed as
a husband is when he become a husband you know um but the daily life is going out getting
to know people and you know having a good time and having some laughs so uh
we need that
too you know so luckily I've been having that for myself but um anyway y'all I just wanted
to sub and smell the roses with y'all thank y'all so much for tuning in if you haven't
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