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my name is beck i'm also known as uh golden shinigami i don't
think many people know me on
youtube today i have with me patton also known as uh how do i say it osnv you got it yeah everyone
always tries to give it some really [ __ ] up pronunciation and uh no it's just osnv just the
letters as it is so you don't pronounce it as like a word yeah more people know me as patent
at this point now than my like online handles i actually know you for your old id yeah
i've had uh fewer names than most people but yeah still all right so when i uh when i
actual
ly found out that i was going to be doing the podcast with you uh we're both people
that have been around for like a long ass time in the community like yeah we've been here for
a [ __ ] minute like i think i started 2008-ish um yeah sorry no good um i was gonna say yeah the
2008 and uh i think i started around it was august 2007 was when i started editing and it's december
2019 now oh my god yeah it's been a long time man like um like how do you actually know that uh you
started back at th
at time it's like did you watch a video that really stood out that got you into
it i started out editing videos on youtube because i was watching club penguin uh music
videos at the time so it wasn't amv's it wasn't amv's i started doing club penguin music
videos at first uh and i don't know i why 2007 it was really big that never like [ __ ] everyone
had a club penguin you know oh yeah and uh i was just watching like narrative videos with it like
this dude heatblast227 i'm sure like that n
ame is like familiar to some people who are listening
but i started out uh watching his stuff then like in related videos there'd be like some really
trash like lyric video or whatever with like so i click on that and be like new blue effects
like one point three minutes and stuff so i'm like oh what's all this like how am i like what's
going on i mean like those um those runescape videos where they would write down the lyrics
in chat exactly it was exactly like that and uh so i started doi
ng those uh and then that's sort
of learning more about the video editing effects how to get sony vegas like i actually like i
was like a little kid like begged my parents some like i was at uh circuit city which isn't
even like a [ __ ] chain anymore in america yeah it was like a like a like a different version
of best buy oh yeah and uh like i begged them like because everyone in my house i'm like can you
like can you can i buy a sony vegas movie studio there for like 40 dollars like whic
h is like an
infinite amount of money when you're a kid and i actually bought so they ended up buying sony vegas
for me like movie studio that's actually pretty rare i think most people never did that you went
through this like day cause like i didn't know how to pirate stuff at the time i had no idea
but i remember i got it and it was so shitty and the the features on it were so limited
because there's a different versions of it of sony vegas it used to be like movie studio
like silver an
d like gold or whatever in pro and uh the other versions were so cut back
and limited i was so pissed when i got it i learned how to pirate it out of spite that day
because i got it i installed it and i was like this is so shitty i gotta figure this pirate [
__ ] out i do remember that uh yeah so i went home and [ __ ] busted out pirate bay and one
of them loud ass ki jins and gave my company [ __ ] virus and it was great i was off off the
[ __ ] races man i used to have this glitch where t
he uh key gen would infinitely start opening and
uh they used to [ __ ] happen all the time like kids back then were actually shitty like kids
these days don't here we are already starting because these days don't know how good they have
it with like repacks and stuff like there's no key gens and stuff nowadays it's just like one repack
for vegas now yeah dropping like a dll file into a folder and it's done there's none of that like
plug your cable out put in this file yeah that was actuall
y don't open vegas don't open vegas before
you put in this belt blah blah blah there's all these requirements destroy your router like put
you around another room like turn everything off like you know it's just it's just like yeah you
had to go through so many actual steps to crack [ __ ] and now it's like just install it that's
it you're good dude even if people weren't uh to use like sony vegas or something you got
[ __ ] like da vinci resolve right now that is like i think like in the p
rofessional world
like really killing it and it's free and most people don't know about it but i guess back then
we didn't have a choice because um i i guess like everyone started using either movie maker or
imovie you immediately knew when people used imovie you would see these text animations yeah
there was like three like stock anime i mean lots of my early videos were when the movie maker like
the blue [ __ ] screen with the white text yeah yeah that was a lot of my videos were those um
but
yeah the imovie stuff was like way more blatant for some reason it was like way more limited
i think yeah it would have like the same like uh text coming in from left and right and like an
angle and stuff and it was like always the same i knew a couple of like imovie editors and they used
to flex their editing on a mac that they're like yeah pretty much um so you add your start at or
basically you started by watching like the club penguin videos they used to make lyric videos
out of t
hat how did you transition from that into actually like editing anime like amvs i think
i got bored of of club penguin and i was trying to no what it was was i started doing um i started
doing uh like a video game videos i bought it like a dazzle dvd recorder capture card like
a company i remember those yeah i bought one of those because i was making a budokai tenkaichi
three fanfic like people used to make those videos fanfic videos so like you like go
and look record the characters and yo
u go in the replay settings and
like turn the hud off and stuff and you'd record that and you put like your
own text over it you know oh my god and i was working with i had a writer for it and everything
like i didn't do the writing some other dude did and i just would do the recording you know and but
he lived in australia this dude and uh so like all of our correspondents would have like a [ __ ]
day between it like i'd message him a question or something and he'd take forever to respond
because the time zones were all [ __ ] up and uh so one day i'm like [ __ ] it like i want to i
want to edit some dragon ball z but i don't have like the video game footage right now for the
writing because i'm like you know i know he's waiting on to send me the script so i'm like let
me go get like clip or something off it and i went to um end up finding about db arena which it does
it doesn't have the clips anymore but at the time it used to have a few like dragon ball z
clips it had lik
e 20 clips or something i remember that in like devx avi on the website
you could download it for free and everyone in the universe used that site it was hilarious but i
got that and then i started putting stuff together and i was making i think my first full amv is a uh it's like a three days grace dragon
ball z uh dragon ball z amv with like riot or something it's gotta be something like that
i think like one of these classics oh yeah man uh you can't see in the visual now but andy
just p
osted it the screen cap of the website and it's it's a screen cap of it from windows vista
dude they took the screenshot oh my god oh my god it looked that's like an updated version of it too
it's not that doesn't even look like it nowadays that looks really familiar to me yeah but that's
that's updated that was before i mean that's after uh it had the clips and stuff that was nuclear
right there but yeah it was really old and then like it's like a ton of [ __ ] like ads is
before ad block
and stuff on chrome existed so you had to like be actually careful
about what you clicked on otherwise if you were like a pixel off it was actually
just a [ __ ] virus oh yeah yeah yeah it's funny you bring that up because uh you
or i don't know did you ever use limewire no i never used lime i went straight through really
i never used any of those services what about you i was all right so i think for the first
three years of me editing or three or four years at least i was on my parents pc
and i have
turkish parents and they are very strict if i [ __ ] around with something my dad spend a lot
of money on i'm you know gonna get my ass beat so i was very i was also very undercover about
that i was editing videos on my dad's pc he wasn't supposed to find out right this was kind of like
the era where you go like okay i don't want people to know that i actually [ __ ] watch anime and
yeah you you couldn't you couldn't tell anyone you were an editor that was super i was super gay
back
then man like yeah and um there used to be okay so i used to download all my stuff from limewire but
limewire was so messed up it had whole amvs on it it had this you probably know this the three doors
down dragon ball z amv yup yup i know that i know that one there's like a few amvs that stand
out that everyone with the gen ember fight yep like that one on limewire if you typed in like
dragon ball z it would show up like goku vs frieza and you download it which would take
like a whol
e day because it's just you know back then interior was terrible you downloaded it
and it's just that video it's like no matter what you downloaded it was that video so um i would
you know i would get that and i was like at some point i was like okay [ __ ] it i'll um i'll
use that to edit and then um do you use the amv you cut up the already made amv yeah i used
to cut that up but back then i can i can say for a fact my verse my first video was 10
minutes long and it took me 10 minutes to
make and uh and of course i tried to upload the save
file because i didn't know what rendering was yeah that took a i was like when you
did render it was probably wmv format oh my first format was avi oh my god and i
got to learn that the hard way it was like xvid avi or divex there was those two codecs
infamously yeah yeah like i was always um i guess back then you know you had the software
everyone was basically using the same stuff so you always kind of found out like how to edit video
but back then i remember that being able to have a really good source that gives you stuff that
doesn't have subs or doesn't have watermarks or that stuff that stuff was like impossible to find
back then so you would have to crop out subtitles like and don't give a [ __ ] about the logo
that's in the corner of like jetix or whatever it was like it was really broke back in the day
it used to be like yeah you'd see people with like the big ass like tokyo tv uh yeah like even like
four or four
kids like tv like watermarks in the corners they were like cliffs and [ __ ] it was
like there was an editing watermarks were huge back then like on kids shows and stuff it would
take up like a full like quarter of the screen basically i feel like like it stands out that much
at least now it's like even if i see someone using like a kiss anime clip and it's got like that
little watermark on it like i want to throw up but still we've come a long way when it comes
to watermarking stuff i'm n
ot going to lie i if i saw a video that i thought was dope
and i had a watermark in it i was thankful because the watermark showed me what movements
they were making with the screen i was like oh so that's how they do the shakes they [ __ ] move
left to right up and down and like the watermark gave their style away i was like ah like as
a kid i was like oh they're so stupid like i know exactly what they're doing but then you
know people found out about new blue active camera [ __ ] and then
that started to be the the shake
no it's new it's new blue earthquake not an active camera man specifically earthquake i like the
train ride one that was dope that was a good one but did you ever go through like the different
phases of styles that everyone went through oh yeah there was i i remember one style being
the manga edits where people would cut out manga panels and put video in i think um like though
nuts started that with his um goku's world edit you remember that video yeah i th
ink i know that
yeah there was like there's a sequence in there where he's got like manga like moving around
and stuff and he's got like like blurred so like it's like moving and there's really really
rudimentary but like that video i feel like i saw a lot of that after that video came out you
know back in the day pre-comping wasn't a thing so you would legit try to mask out the panel which
was which would probably be like a really bad mask position your video behind it render that import
it back in and then that would be you know during that process you're losing quality because you're
re-uploading like reusing footage that's rendered yeah at the end yeah no one used like
lossless stuff yet yeah so like it's just like mp4 like 2400 mvp like mbps or
something it was [ __ ] awful man like um and yeah like i said like i never had
a good source i would get uh i think i edited one piece mostly during that time i
would get stuff with like spanish subtitles and like watermarks and
stuff and i i would
just be like hey if i cut out the audio and hide the subs i'm good remember for a while
that was like the spanish episodes of stuff were like the high quality episodes like the
spanish dbz or whatever like encodes were like really good or something somehow like
i i think that was a lie ended up being but because the spanish one piece was really good
yeah but like i remember um that came around like around like 2009 2010 like casper like 7000 razer
was like telling peop
le like yeah he originally used like spanish dbz encodes or something so
that was the thing to do was his stuff i didn't like his stuff back then and i still like it
now like his clips man didn't he make this one he released the whole pack of scripted episodes
right like he released the whole thing he doesn't even script it there we go i remember there was a
big deal i was annoyed at the time when he put it out i'm like he didn't even script this you could
tell too he just [ __ ] put it in
virtual dub and used the warp sharp function in virtual dub on it
he didn't even like actually go into depth about it i mean i've yet to put out episode two so i've
yet to go out in depth about it but still like i was looking at that i'm like this is just virtual
that warp sharp this is not even any heavy ice and [ __ ] really yeah i mean back in the day i guess
around the time that he did bring that out i think a lot of people were thankful anyways because
getting a source was just [ __ ]
awful like um i remember there's this one editor
that i always like i think i was a kid i think i was like 16 17. i'm 25 now
uh there's this guy called the maximus i don't know if you know him that doesn't
ring a bell at all he used to edit a lot of one piece but for some reason he always
had like the best looking clips and whatever and i don't know if i'm not sure if it was him but
i had later then found out that the guy actually buys uh the dvds for these animes and burns
them on twist o
r like takes it off of the cd and edits them i used to rip dvds too i used to
do that i i have uh all my evangelion i had ripped flcl i ripped my dvds that was a thing i remember
that yeah i would actually buy a lot of my own footage even though it was available the quality
of the ones that are available weren't even that good at the time so you could rip them in better
quality and nowadays we get like fully cooley on like blu-ray and that's just that's just a nia
search away nowadays thoug
h like that's so easy pretty much like if if you're if you're
someone that wants to edit anime that's like for example stuff that's ongoing you just go
on to horrible subs and they got you covered that's too even though the horrible subs and
codes are just all right but yeah you have a lot of options these days even like lower quality
stuff like it's still way better than what was some of the best [ __ ] not even that long ago
i feel like encoding especially since h.265 it came out has real
ly gotten like a lot better for
anime stuff like the standards have changed a lot so like we're talking about how uh we're
talking as if like back in the day that was like we were hustling trying to get
along a video but it was fun like i i think at least for myself i i had a lot of fun
doing it even though if i were to do it now i'd be like okay this is too much
[ __ ] work trying to get an episode i guess as a kid i had this drive that i was like
okay i want to put out a video i don't ca
re what i don't care what i have to do type of thing
yeah i feel like everyone's like that to a point and then you either you keep doing that
and you stay that way and you just like kind of like not edit for fun but like that's kind of
what you do or you like something like clicks one day in your head or something and you're
like maybe i can do something with this you know yeah like to you because obviously you've
been doing it up until this point it's like it has evolved in like how you do
it and what
you do and like it's completely changed for you like what what was your process from from
like from where were you like okay i'm gonna take this serious now and maybe uh follow it as
like a career choice it was a single pinnacle point and one specific video um because i used
to just watch a bunch of amvs and stuff and i would just be like okay that's fine there's
a fun like soul leader edit whatever you know um i was doing uh flash whoring stuff at the
time you know linear blu
r gaussian blur with like brightness and contrast on every clip radial blur
oh yeah you know yeah that was a trend as well that was a big trend i was part of that and
i'm just making betas and stuff the time you know i hadn't really done a full like really
because even though my falls back in like 2007 and eight and stuff were uh just like trash
so like it was just like padded foals you know and uh i don't know how i ended up on it but
one day on youtube in my related videos was uh amv soup
s flcl video [ __ ] this [ __ ]
i'm out of here and i think i know that one yeah it's am it's uh flcl fully coolly
with uh motion city soundtracks uh the song is abbreviated as lg fuad and
i remember watching that and i was like it like hit me i was like wow i've never
like seen an amv make me feel something you know yeah and it was just like it stood out
to me and because it wasn't a bunch of flashes it wasn't a bunch of like you know gradient maps and
like you know plug-ins and stuff it
was just like raw editing and it was just scene selection and
like stuff and like crossfades and i was just like what is this i've never seen anything like
this i was like i've never had an amv made me feel something and then i discovered
his channel went through all those videos in related videos there was um joey's channel
arashino marashi amv from dz studios and uh like there's a whole other world of the a of anime
musicvideos.org editors you know like jforce321 uh benji there's a lot of
people out
there and it was just like a totally different community that didn't exist
and didn't care about like the youtube community there's a big divide but the
animate.org editors took it really seriously or at least that was reflected in their work to
me and it really clicked in my head and it was also the time in my life when i like kind of like
was kind of like uh it was just sort of like an important time in my life i guess uh it's one
of my favorites fighting on like a career pat
h yeah but in my in my personal life i remember
like um i was just like like a kid at a time or whatever because i was like 12 or whatever and
like my first like dumb like girlfriend after i was like 13 in time my girlfriend like like get
the time like don't mean i'm like a little kid i think it's the end of the world you know because i
hadn't been dumped before and so i go and i make a really edgy youtube account and i'm an ex hollow
soul and stuff you know and like i'm just they're editin
g like edgy naruto stuff i'm just like
literally the edgiest [ __ ] kid imaginable right and i come across that video i'm like what
the [ __ ] like this is like a real video and from there i like just hard stopped doing
effects i just completely stopped doing effects and i just went on this big raw editing
binge and i was decrying people for using effects what are you doing this and that became
a huge troll in the community it was hilarious um and then like because you are even until
now k
nown as a raw editor yeah exactly i'm a raw editor i use quite a lot of effects
in my videos but i use them in a way that it it only um just facilitates the thing i'm
trying to do with scene selection and pacing i've still like i don't know who told me it but
like if you're using you know a ton of effects you're spending a lot of time on a frame you can
spend many hours on a frame and you can try and make that frame look good you know like you can do
as many after effects comps as you want
you can do twister to it rsmb whatever you know whatever
you're doing to it but if it's the wrong frame then it's worthless you know you know scene
selection and internal pacing is going to be like always way more important then you can then
once you make something worth putting effects on then you can put effects on it but a lot
of people just sort of skip that step in editing i feel like you know this is why i
always looked up to the people that would actually do a lot of editing um with
masks or
like make videos with just masks because i never looked at a clip that i thought of masking
and i was like okay is this really worth it putting in like three to four hours of
work so i can put this image on another one um because i was never too confident in
like scene selection and stuff like that um and i think because of the lack
of trust i had in that i kind of also like i also started out as a like effect
heavy editor but i now try to stick to raw um but that was more of a ch
oice i made because
i was kind of okay i can't do this stuff anymore i can't copy and paste the same
presets anymore it's too much work damn dragon plug and things dragging this new blue
effects s shaker whatever the [ __ ] on it yeah so obviously uh you went through that transition
where you started taking it more seriously you like discovered this whole community um and it
was like filled with like-minded people that weren't like uh just doing it as like a fun thing
and whatever it was m
ore like taking everything seriously everyone took it really seriously and
uh they put a lot of thought and effort behind their work and sent betas to each other and
stuff of videos but i came around in that time around like 2011 2012 on that community and that
was kind of the end of that community though um so i came in the community after dumping a bunch
of my old friends and my old ways of thinking about editing made a bunch of new friends got a
bunch of new ideas about editing and then
they all immediately stopped uploading basically everyone
completely died that community had completely died off basically yeah um yeah um and i felt kind
of bitter and weird about that for a long time because i didn't really know what to do because
i didn't really have a community anymore like i was one of the few people still uploading
stuff in that style so i felt like very alone i got kind of like bitter and vindictive about
it which is weird because the thing to think about with amvs b
ut like i definitely felt
like underappreciated for many years and uh i just i stopped watching other people's amvs
like for like three or four years if someone were to send me a link to a video i would watch
it other than that i only watched my own work i just never like sought out to look at new stuff
or find new people that were editing nah man nothing if it appeared in my sub feed it was from
someone i already knew i think i was watching ken shinoro from crow's team that jeff um wheneve
r he
would upload something with his uploads were few and far between he was kind of doing a lot of
the same thing i was in that time in that like we're just kind of like isolated like
yeah he was part of crows and nero but he didn't like give a [ __ ] about them you
know like it was just something like slapped in just like i had been like kind of repping nv that
was really big studio for years and i want to be a part of it and then by the time it got handed
off to me like there was no one
left in it like no no sam or uh beggy or um you know ulysses
amv soup you know um like it would be in the studio that i've been aspired to be a part of
for a long time and then we finally got a hand to me he was like here's nobody he's dead i'm like
sweet okay i'll just wrap it for by myself for a couple years yeah that was a big thing yeah i got
into dz too joey asked me to join in 2012 i think and uh by that time though everyone stopped pretty
much uploading like i think only monkey king
ghost had kept uploading after that in dayton dz
you know joey put up a couple of videos here and there but in general i joined that community
after pretty much all of it died there's nothing on the org anymore but so i kind of like the
you know there weren't a lot of other videos for me to watch either that was the thing too so
i just focused on my own work and improving that and i didn't send betas i didn't beta
test for about five years i think like nothing i would just make a video and
be put
out and if it landed atlanta if it didn't didn't and uh until uh i joined team karasu
i think yeah that was that was the uh the last and the most recent studio and
it's probably gonna be the last one you know so you're gonna stick to it yeah man uh
they are my absolute family man i know you had crimson on here and he's talking about
that or not yeah i heard about it how you guys think of each other and yeah i've never
really heard of a studio that really um because i looked at the
stuff you guys do and
i've uh listened on the previous podcast of how crimson um how he thinks about it like he sounded
really dedicated and i've never heard you know most people that are in studios together don't
even know like uh each other's real names and stuff like that they don't hang out they just put
each other in a list and then they're like okay i guess we're in a studio but you guys really like
do stuff together yeah we take it real seriously it's like a it's like a real internet
family you
know and like so it was co-founded with by uh uh kane mdx that's just the same dude different
names and he changed it i i missed his old name but he's empty he goes by mtx now um and uh
funami and funami was my last editing student i met jamil in like 2013 2014 i kind of took him
under my wing and stuff at the time and i wasn't any studio at the time i was just still repping nv
just by myself um so i taught him a bunch of stuff and then uh he started tk in 2000 late 2014 and i
think early 2015 i'm pretty sure somewhere around then i remember we were still on skype at the time
no one discord wasn't around yeah i know that much um but they they he they started that i really
didn't pay attention to it because i didn't really know what the hell it was it was kind of like a
weeby name too i'm like what the [ __ ] is this like it's just some like they've got some weave
[ __ ] going on here this is gay so i didn't why did i want to be a part of it and then um i think
ja
mil just added me one day and said hey you're a part of it uh funami just added me one day
on sketch that you're part of it i'm like okay cool i guess i'm part of it or whatever so just
like that no uh there was no vetting process for me i kind of just i had the special exception i
got kicked i've been kicked out of it once when we were back on skype i got kicked out what did
you do uh i was posting shemail porn in the chat on skype and uh and uh mdx was uh testing me he
said he posted agai
n i'm kicking you oh my god so you know i i can't blink so you know i'm not gonna
be the one to [ __ ] blink and not post it so i immediately posted something else and i got kicked
and then refused to rejoin the chat and i think i just didn't join out of spite just to not do it
and then jamil just added me back in one day and been in it since man yeah um but man
they're my family i'm part owner now um funami had been uh stepped down and uh it's me
mars and mtx we're all uh partial owners uh
of it and it's not the only channel you guys are being
part of right you guys have multiple channels we've all got our hands all over the place and
all kinds of projects you know i'm part of idle glance too i do work with that i've been and then
multiple things in the community too i've been a a lot in a lot of recent years i've been a uh
technical and creative consultant and advisor on a lot of stuff i'm doing a lot of encoding for
people scripting for people here's how you do this and th
at technically i've really like focused on i
think people kind of know me for like okay we just gotta be really high quality we gotta get patent
to take care of it you know yeah so you were you would be like the back end of a lot of stuff
that was going on um yeah man people that needed work done yeah i was like everywhere man just all
behind the scenes working and doing stuff so and i enjoy doing i prefer to have that rather than just
be like the face of something i prefer to like no i'll
help out with it and i'll get it going
and i'll do this and that but like i don't think i have the i have the emotional stamina to like
be the face of something are you gonna have it i have enough self-awareness to like you so many
times see people take over a big project and have some big public melt now and then like go afk
for like months and it's like i feel like i would definitely do that so i have enough self-awareness
to not agree that beforehand you know like if i just dip randomly
it's not gonna be as big of a
deal if like the face of something dips you know a lot of people would actually do that in the
amv community and then make a comeback video and they would actually guys them back and
then you could you literally like notice that they or like they would put out a video you're
like okay they obviously are rusty and then people would like if it was like a big personality and
i mean with big i mean like 1k subs back in the day was like that was a big deal man that
was a
really big deal holy [ __ ] you know you had um what's that guy called his name is donnie darko
remains now i think his name was rock the rhythm neither that was ringing a bell to me that was
like a guy that was like he was really into one piece and bleach editing but he would make like
a lot of foals all the time and i think back in the day um his channel got deleted um and then
he made another video uh i think a couple years later and people just looked at and they just
they were j
ust like hey man what happened blah blah blah this video sucks and i'm like he
hasn't been editing for a while um of course it's not going to be as good as it used to be so
a lot of people back in the day got discouraged by um they first of all felt bad for taking a
break and then they had the fear of coming back there was like this big social thing going
on um i don't know if you know misho kun that sounds familiar he was
like glitch dubstep heavy vfx um what year is this um i would say li
ke 212 to
214 ish that's what i stopped watching so oh no he made a comeback and people hated on his videos
so much he made in his video after that he made like a call out to the viewers being like [
__ ] you i'll do what the [ __ ] i want and [ __ ] it was like a big thing back in the
day i think that should be a part of it i think you should do your own thing regardless of
input but also i do feel like people need to be more open to genuine harsh criticism of stuff
you know definitely pe
ople know me as like yeah i'm gonna like rip apart the it's like my
streams and stuff you know i'm gonna do judging oh yeah i sit there and i pick it apart frame
by frame you know um but i feel like you know if that's how it was back then like when people would
send babies to each other and beta test especially with when i when the amv community people they
would rip your [ __ ] apart you should see some of the posts on the forums there when people upload
a video you would get [ __ ] destro
yed if there's some weird glitch for a half second in your video
you'd be like that's it you're [ __ ] up you know a big thing was people exporting videos with
a different frame rate than the actual project so you would see like a millisecond of an episode
that shouldn't be there it had a ghost thing yeah it was like frame sampling it was like [ __ ] up
or like not disabling resample when they like sped something up yeah yeah yeah but uh i thrived
on that you know like really brutal critici
sm because it forced me to like okay they're gonna
rip my video shreds i gotta make something really really good because i don't wanna be told i'm
[ __ ] so you know and it was good legitimate criticism too it wasn't just like wow this is [
__ ] because you're using this song like no they would go through just like i did and they'd pick
it apart frame by frame what the change you know yeah but it got to the point where i'm editing
with that in mind so by the time it got to the point where i
'm beta testing stuff knowing
it would be ripped to shreds if it wasn't you know perfect uh you know i edited i guess
very differently or cautiously with that but i enjoyed it the end result i'd say is always the
most important part yeah definitely like um there i don't know there's two kinds of people that
whenever they finish a video they either upload it and never look at it or like kind of forget
about it because they don't want to go back and look and be like okay there's this one part
i [
__ ] up but i can't change it now or there's those people that keep re-watching their video because
they're just really satisfied with the end result yeah i'd say that too yeah there's people just
upload it and just forget it and people who like it's like a big deal it's a release you know
yeah which one are you the upload forget it type um yeah i have to say i'm uploading forget it but
it's like unintentional i guess like because i'm generally like once i finish something i just get
out of the headspace of the video you know like it's up there i just spent hours scripting it and
doing this and doing it in code on it and stuff and it's like all right i'm done with that you
know i don't want to go back to it i'm out of my head space for that release i'm happy for it but
you know i got other stuff i'm cooking up already generally you know so it's like okay cool did
the video all right what's the next one right so um if we step back and we talk about like um we
talk about
personal life if you want yeah sure so um what it's like the things you are doing right
now to be able to like make a living or like pay the bills like are you doing creative work are you
in like the creative sector i do creative work it doesn't pay the bills though um eventually it'd
be nice to try and get that to where uh it could does pay the bills full time but right now i
am the front of house manager at a restaurant okay that actually doesn't sound
like that actually sounds pretty goo
d i've uh i've always kind of had uh manager
positions kind of early on in my life i worked at a hotel that was my first job um and
i worked on my way up there just because people kept leaving so like i became like slowly like the
most qualified person there just because i've been the longest was it more because you like because
a lot of places have that same stuff but it's like because you can kind of like get through the [ __
] without being like [ __ ] it i'm leaving type thing well well
i like being in charge of things
i'm generally good at it so i'm good at organizing people and telling them what to do i was in um
boy scouts as a kid and i was the patrol leader and so i had like organized all kinds of [ __
] we go camping and [ __ ] like that like so i got used to like running a crew
of people like pretty early on as a kid and that translated over
like when i started working and stuff even now to uh you being part of the head of
karasu exactly yeah like i know how to li
ke deal and it kind of like scales as you as you
get older it's it's it's a lot of the same stuff but it's different too but you can apply a lot
of the same uh ways of running people but then again it doesn't you know team cars 2 kind
of like it runs itself you know like people do come and go we do get new members um there
is a heavy vetting process but it's not really skill based we're not looking for any more editors
ever and we haven't been for years now it hasn't been wow your editing i
s so insane dude we need
you in here it's almost it's almost never really been about that either we just kind of use that
as like a part of the vetting process sometimes you know crimson fits in as one of the most
recent members that stands out to everyone he does his editing was dog [ __ ] uh when we first
met him i remember i tore his video apart in jt5 his testing entry with naruto it was horrific
it was garbage dude and i hope he's listening yeah he will be hi crimson dude that
video w
as aids man anyway um but uh technical difficulties on annie's end i love
calling him annie yo i remember i i completely forgot a h was uh part of the gossip for a
time oh my god yo that's going way back though um yeah though uh it kind of runs itself
it doesn't really like beat up we are like it's it's not really a studio you know that has
to be run it is it's an internet family it's an artist's collective um i forgot what you're
even talking about but uh i love team cars too crimson's vid
eo was terrible okay yeah crips
already was terrible it's garbage yeah and over the next couple of months we kind of like like i
got to know him really well because i knew like we had still done like the vetting process
of like having like trial members at the time and uh so i wanted to get real involved with
that of like okay who the hell is coming who wants to be a part of this you know so i started
talking with him real heavy on on discord going over stuff talking about editing in genera
l how
like you know giving him like sort of like i guess kind of teaching him like as a student but i still
considered jamil to be my last editing student but a lot of it's walking through explaining like
the mindset of editing to people rather than like technical stuff like you know technical [ __ ]
they can learn from like a youtube video like how to do this twixtor thing or whatever you know they
don't need to know i don't need to tell them that but the mindset of like motivations behind
editing
that's what i feel like most people probably still need to learn i would apply that same logic to um
for example we had an intern the other day at work um like i i work at an agency and we do ads and
we do get interns every now and then and they're very confident in their knowledge about software
or whatever but for example there was this one kid that was really confident in his knowledge for
davinci resolve for color coding and i was like okay well give it a go and um i told him i
t looked
like absolute dog [ __ ] um because you know the kid didn't have any like he doesn't know stuff
he doesn't know anything about like color theory and you don't get that by uh knowing how program
works and then just like maybe playing around with it for like a long ass time but there's actual
like whole courses like books it like anything that like there's a lot of stuff that you can
learn about color theory that is not in the software and um i think people especially in
the communi
ty you have for example people that make videos that hit every beat or like have to
make a cut on every beat because they don't know hard sinking yeah yeah some people do it really
well i really like uh corey's videos oh my god okay we might have mixed opinions i
just really like his flow and i like um come on man i wanna have i want to do i
want to host corey's episode just so i can kick his [ __ ] ass we might we might we
might get that uh we might get that done but coming from cory comin
g for you i kind
of want to talk about the whole uh like the personal life stuff again because a lot
of people um have this misconception that like you have done professional work in like
video right like you have done some projects or some things um for people um that probably
don't even know how to like cut a video themselves but like customers like that yeah i've done a
lot of local work for people like around town like who want like an ad for like their small
business a lot of it's kin
d of cringe because like they shoot themselves like hey i did this
thing or whatever and like like i just i just do the editing workout or like i'll make like
website logos and like stuff like that for people um but like you also notice how in general there's
this misconception that um you got to be like really well educated on this stuff and then
when you look at what has to be done or what people want and like 90 is like people that
know how to edit videos like the bar is so low for like
advertising work you don't need
to know much to actually get into that business well even if it's a shitty business i feel
like yes and no with that you know you don't need to be like academically well-versed to
be able to do you just need to be able to like you know prove it with your portfolio but at the
same time there's a lot of people i see doing work for a lot of people who probably shouldn't be um
like for a long time the youtube channel trash had someone really nice artists musician
s on
there and they have absolutely no standards they had no standards for a long time like
you know they'd get an xxxtentacion video and it would get you know multiple hundreds
of millions of views even before he died and it was just the biggest [ __ ] piece of [ __
] in the world it was just aids man and um on the other end they uploaded like smart death music
videos which are actually shot and edited well but so you know like professionally like with
red cameras and stuff like that you
know and like there's like a middle ground with that but what
people don't keep in mind i suppose is that no matter what client work you do no matter how
small you're still like that's gonna be part of your public portfolio whether you want it
to be or not so yeah a lot of what i've done is with that in mind too like i've always like even i
started did like really young work when i was like a freelancer like when i was like even like 15 or
something i started doing work for people i even ke
pt that in mind then something i knew like it's
gonna be like even if no one finds it no one comes across it like even my name's not on it like it's
something that i've done that i've put my like seal of approval on you know even for projects
that i felt were [ __ ] i had to just like grind it out it's still like it has to be good enough
for me you know the customer doesn't know shitty stupid got no standards it has to be good enough
for me you know yeah um but a lot of people don't have hi
gh enough standards for themselves to for
that to reflect in a lot of their work and that's that's what i feel like is pretty prevalent these
days because it's so easy to get your hands on a program but not actually know what you're doing
like that in turn you know yeah like um because i did i like i did go to film school um and back
then the study that i was doing was called av specialist so you got to learn everything from
audio video photo like working in a studio and um i can say like f
or those two years that
i was in that school i didn't learn a single like i didn't learn a single new thing i was
rather taught how to do things i already knew in a different way and i was kind of
like i don't need to know that stuff um and i dropped out of film school uh and i started
working at like mcdonald's or something like i i think i probably worked
at mcdonald's for like a year um but ended up working for an agency in another
country now like doing advertisements and when i um i d
o still see people say like oh yeah i
want to be able to do something creative but i uh there's this university where i can
learn how to do film and stuff like i can say for a fact most people we have at
work that are working in our company right now uh haven't necessarily studied like neither
have i um or i've dropped out at least and literally of that has come from
trying to keep up with like amv stuff learning how to do stuff properly learn how to
cut and like do scene selection and wha
tever you can apply that same stuff to like a legit
music video that's what a lot of times i'm brought on for you know it's like creative consulting
and technical advisement with like music videos and things like that and it i didn't have any
experience starting out in music videos like that i just started doing amvs but if you're doing
it right the editing principles all carry over um there's this dude from amv org a really really
old head like editing in like 2003 and stuff um julian milo
known as beowulf online um he
got his uh editing career professionally started because he made a 25-minute um amv and
on the story of the antichrist it's kind of like a famous amv i think i know that one it's like a
like a bunch of marilyn manson songs and stuff and it's like berserk and like fists the north star
like really old anime and stuff like that but he would submit that like as his portfolio uh
to places and he got to start doing that but you know i think he did that in 2005 or so
mething
but he had been editing for years up until that point making fulls doing it properly like like
like you said you talked about um like corey's hard sinking um you know not to just [ __ ] on
cory specifically because it's a bit of a meme at this point in the community but like most people
do it yeah but i that's exactly sort of what i was doing too before i felt like i actually started
improving as an editor like if i saw a spike on a waveform i'm like okay i do a flash here or a
cut
here or i do a big blur here you know yeah the audio waveform would be like a preset exactly
put down your markers exactly and i tell people all the time who come to me you know how do i get
better it's like ignore the waveform ignore it's meaningless the waveform is absolutely meaningless
um you know internal sync and scene selection you know it's always going to be the most important
aspect of it is doing it creatively if it's just hard sync and i've said this in all my editing
streams o
f when i'm judging people's streams is if you're hard syncing every beat once i've
watched five seconds of it i've watched the entire video so i know it's gonna know what's going
on like generally i've heard the song already or if i'm not i hear the tempo of it i know you're
gonna cut it on every [ __ ] snare or whatever you know like that's it i've seen the whole video
it doesn't matter especially if it's a source that everyone's already seen too it's like this
video is pointless it's just
pointless but if you oh yeah no i wanted to bring up another example
but uh i'll tell you after okay but like you know if you learn to be creative with just cutting just
hard cuts you know not even crossfades or anything else like i tell people just you just make long
videos i don't really have any students anymore but i tell people like just a big like sort of
like general here's what there's something you can do that will improve your editing it's just
make long videos and only use hard
cuts to do it and then just repeat that and keep making them
and just keep doing that for like a year basically like it's your training arc you know it's your
training arc like in your anime just like just like deku and [ __ ] you know what i mean like
it's a training arc bro just do that for a year um that will improve a lot of people's editing
because then you can go and take effects and you have something that's worth starting to
put effects on you know you know this is why the people um
because there's this big uh big divide
between vegas like people that started editing in vegas and then people that just straight went into
after effects and then later used premiere it's like even in a professional workflow it's like
it's very important that before you start using any type of effects on your video you lay
down like the groundwork you lay down like what you want done and then you import it
into after effects that's why it's called the that you actually apply all that [ __
] it's post
effects man like it's post effects for a reason like yeah your edits done now you're touching
up making it look nice you're doing something you couldn't do with just cutting you know
like um i rarely use after effects for stuff i went to premiere back in 2014 i switched
i was like one of the first like premiere editors as far as i know i know some people out
there who do it now still is only a couple but at that time there was like three other people
who were like were premier
mains and back then premier was really shitty but it's it's just a
really nice it's a way nicer version of vegas uh basically more stable a lot of people are
scared of premiere for some reason and i'm like literally just transfer your binds from vegas
over like just change the the razor tool key to s in premiere and it's yeah it's literally
vegas but it's way better you know something uh something davinci resolve did is before
you install it they ask you what software you are familiar with
and then change the layout
according to that software so if you say you're familiar with premiere davinci resolve is going
to look like premiere i wish premiere did that for vegas that they had some sort of preset but
even if there is not a preset like that you can literally do anything with the windows yeah like
you can you can make it look like vegas speaking of that though you remember people who used vegas
and they would like put the preview on the bottom uh was that vegas i've seen tha
t with like three
people i was always horrified when they sent me a screenshot are you so like oh man i don't know
if people still have that but you would see vegas but like a different color palette it would
like be pink with black i know genetics does that uh he like [ __ ] changes the color scheme
on windows to do that because you dude i look at that stuff it's horrific it looks horrible i'm
sorry guys but it looks horrible it's like i like it completely black for some reason it's like
people who edit with the music on the top uh oh the the the audio layer oh man it's like oh
no no what are you doing it's horrific there's a reason premiere [ __ ] uh divided those things yes
so the audio doesn't go on top it looks horrible um oh you know what the you know what the worst
was and i know you i know you're gonna relate to this or like relate to seeing this so you
know before people found out what markers were they used to cut they used to actually cut the
audio wave like the a
udio yeah but with vegas vega yeah because vegas would do like a half like
a frames worth of like faded out yeah like like an autocross fade and so it would just [ __ ] it up
i god dude you used to be able to hear it so many times you'd be watching a video and you could hear
them cutting the audio with it it was horrific it could just be like a second of just like but
it'd be like a [ __ ] ton in a row it was awful people who did that dude the amount of el nino
i am loco oh my god that song
holy [ __ ] i am loco how many cuts i heard during that song it's
like like i i legit thought i had like something wrong with my brain that i have heard this song so
often that my brain was just chipping parts away but people have just been cutting the audio
it's like it's so stupid because um they either didn't notice it or they uh just didn't
care at all like back then it was kind of like i don't know like the wild west type [ __ ] people
were like not good enough i'll upload it no even
back then i was calling people out it was like
2010 i'm calling people out for that [ __ ] i'm like at least just like if you cut the audio
just delete the audio track and re-import the song like just do that at least at the end right
before you render like no that's too much for it i'm like then die it's just like it's terrible man
i was calling from the start for doing that like it's not hard it's not hard to not [ __ ] that
up it's not hard what about people doing mep's god you know wher
e this is going they send their
parts and the guy that assembles the mep doesn't make a new track for the audio he assembles all
individual tracks with their own audio i mean at that point the general kind of meps where
the people participating are doing that isn't worth watching and it's anyway and it's
already ruined from the start so luckily luckily that doesn't really matter but yeah that's that's
annoying too i always like doing collabs or um or mep's and stuff is never posting who did
what part oh you don't do that i don't i hate doing that i always hated doing that because i
felt like it always ruined the video as a whole i do that because i like i made an mep a couple
years ago and i did that because uh just because out of respect for the people participating i
think they just wanted their name in the video but i think you talk about that before you
release it yeah like i list i list who did who did the parts but i always put it out
of order intentionally and i alway
s oh okay i always put parts not listed in order like
it's an uncredited mep or an unaccredited collab but okay it's the people put like markers
like time stamp markers you know like first 30 seconds is this guy 30 seconds to a minute
was this dude like i hate and people do that it ruins the video as a whole people like
well people want to know who did what part it's like if you're a real fan of the work and you
really give a [ __ ] of who did what part anyway you can tell just by watching
it oh you
know those mep where they put the name in the video yeah like it's like a watermark it's
like oh god it's like at the bottom they have like their own logos with like ichigo holo mask and
stuff it's like i just can't believe there's there's still like there's maps where people still
just like have like it's like just a bunch of like 20 second betas and they're all like different
anime or they're the same man 40 parts it's like 40 parts it's just like it's just a big like scrap
pil
e literally which is like fine as its own thing but it's a terrible mep you know pick one really
good song and everyone just edits a little part of it or everyone edits a bunch of foals like
some of my favorite meps are like 25 minutes long like because it's literally everyone just doing a
full video and it's the same theme like halloween maps you know the looking forward to the
annual dz halloween mep was a really big deal you know way back in the day and it'd
be but it'd be like a 25 minu
te mep like when the last ones i was a part of i was part
of the last one actually the 2014 halloween mep and the chameleon 808 uh did the intro and i
was pretty tight but uh i don't know if you're familiar with him we did the apple tree edit
you ever heard of him uh i don't think so you've probably seen it but it's not really probably
he didn't do a whole lot after that but he was in dz as an editor for a while but um that's a
20 minute mep and it still has some of the best work i've seen
you know there's a 40 minute
mep dedicated to an old member of dz who died and uh like those have some of the best work in it
and they're kind of they're still really coherent you know like some even like one person's part
will be like eight minutes my part for that is a whole quarter of that 20 minute thing you know
like i had a five minute part for the mvp yeah um but i feel like you know making the video
a coherent whole is the most important thing you know if you have people in there wh
o
are clashing their styles don't complement in a way even with contrast you know that that
complement each other it's pointless and yeah it's fun i guess it's a project but it comes out with a
shitty video so it's fun but it's not fun to watch something that stood out to me from what crimson
said about mep's was that you guys don't pressure on deadlines yeah we don't because first off
whenever anyone if anyone watching this will know if you put a deadline on mep it's meaningless it's
mean
ingless you know you'll have you'll have like 10 people doing an mep you'll set a deadline
two months out give them plenty of time right now the two months will roll by and five people
out of it won't even have started and two people have like had like scraps and you get like two
two parts that are actually done or something you know like it doesn't matter when it's
done it's done it's ready it's ready like um our favorite my favorite map we've done i
think volume two now was um legend and
i organized everything with that i was sort of i
said like the creative director for the project but i think we finished all of our parts for
that in like a week or two i'm pretty sure like two weeks or something yeah maybe it may be a
bit longer but i ended up doing two parts and the patch because someone like couldn't do part
of it or something i don't know but like that's coherent video i didn't credit people that credit
people i didn't like time stamp it intentionally um and then i do a
lot of people's projects
too i brought on as the color correction guy like the color grading guy for stuff you know
like the effects guy like i do the same stuff on everyone's parts to make it all blend together you
know i dave the seams between parts and stuff like that like i fix it up and generally then i do the
encode and scripting and whatnot you know for it to make it as coherent as possible when
you're watching it it just it's going it's not a big bunch of broken up parts it's just
it's one coherent piece you know so um what did i want to say again
still doing better than carl i'm sorry carl i don't even i didn't even know
him that much i'm not sorry carl i'm sorry but um i wanted to transition into this topic um
which brings me back to the last time we spoke um which wasn't eight years ago it
was like last year during a stream okay all right so you probably don't remember this
but um you know tm i love tm yeah shout out to tm shout out to tm you're such a sweetheart
bro i
love you i i still talk to that guy almost every day he uh he visited me last year you know like
uh he's still he's still part of like this uh friend group that i talked to daily and he about a
year ago told me that you were streaming you know patton was streaming he told me and i remembered
you from like seven eight years ago so i was like oh [ __ ] i gotta find this out and um i get
on your stream and i notice you look different you want to talk about it no go for it
yeah yeah all
right so uh you my friend you were bald you had shaved your head
i was buzzing my head at the time i buzzed my head for like a year almost
it looked really dope i have to say yeah i pulled off well um when i was in high school
i was listening to a lot of smashing pumpkins so you know lead singer of that band billy corgan
who i related to on a creative level too um he shaved his head that was his look you know or
is his look still so i'm like [ __ ] it i'm gonna go see what i can do if i co
uld like pull off the
shaved head look because i like cut my hair pretty short before it's just like whatever so i'm like
[ __ ] i'm just buzz my head and see what happens so you didn't care about it at all because i know
that i would be very hesitant to actually do that yeah and you everyone should be like unless you're
going through some weird breakup and you just buzz your head to be empowered like you know don't
do it really just keep go shorter and see how it works a little bit and the
n go full on but i feel
like i did the the buzz head thing pretty well um that was also after i didn't cut my hair for
like three years so when you saw me on stream i hadn't cut my hair for like three years and
then i buzzed my head one day so i went from having really long hair past my shoulders
to like no hair at all because i feel like yeah i'm i'm kind of a person of extremes and a
lot of people couldn't know that by now but uh i feel like if you're gonna do something anything
you do i
t all the way or you don't do it at all you know and a lot of what i do my personal life
my workflow and ethic and stuff reflects that too and it's a good thing and a bad thing uh but i
feel like if what's the point of doing anything in moderation for the most part yeah um so i'm either
one all the hair i want none of it so in high school i buzzed my head once and then that was
okay and i let it go let it grow out a little bit um i was doing a disconnected undercut for a
while then i grew m
y hair out for like three years didn't cut my hair at all i had really
long hair uh and then i got a new job where you couldn't have long hair at yeah that was part
of the dress code you couldn't have men couldn't have super long hair so i'm like i don't want to
do anything in between so like [ __ ] this so i just buzzed my head again i did that for like a
year like nine months i was at that place and uh and i left that place and i haven't
cut my hair since leaving that place so i haven't c
ut my hair in a little over a year now
so i'm back to happening pretty long again yeah that must have felt pretty freeing though i know
people that buzz their heads are like they have less stuff to deal with in the morning for example
yeah and it's kind of the same with like growing my hair out too like i just stopped cutting my
hair i don't do anything with it i don't get management like haircuts to like keep it like team
like i just i let go i don't do it i haven't had a haircut now see w
hen i was buzzing my head
i just did it myself i just like i'd wake up like i just buzzed my head i do that once like
every like four days or something you know yeah um and that'd be it uh i was just like it
was nice having a low maintenance thing too i was just like lazy so i'm like [ __ ] it i'll just
do this real quick anyway plus i'm not paying a ton of money for a haircut all the time i
have to worry about managing it putting gel in and this and that and it's like not like
beating exa
ctly and now my hair is fine to the point where i just like i just tie it back
and it's just like that's it that's that's it easy nice like lazy like i don't like [ __
] with it for a while there's a button for a while they're like weird like in between stage
where it's not short but it's not long but you can't pull it back it's just like i had like gel
it all weird and [ __ ] and it was just irritating but yeah yeah but that was the old meme from my
for my stream was like you know the bald
jokes and [ __ ] so now um i'm actually gonna start
streaming again because i i took a bit of a break from that for a while trying to get some
stuff together in my life um yeah like how how did you actually get into streaming like i didn't
know you were actually streaming until tm told me yeah i had been trying to stream i like even
like built like a recording studio basically yeah specifically um learned about broadcast stuff
you know uh audio interfaces stuff like that and a lot about au
dio that year just nice um but uh
and i wanted to get into it to try something sort of like just new like i always done a bunch
of creative stuff and i've done almost everything else up until that point so i'm like okay let
me try this out now let me see how this goes um you know the the aspect of talking to people
in the chat while it was going i've been a part of some streams and i've watched some streams some
streamers i'd streamed in the past like in 2012 um for a little bit but i never
pursued it um
so i wanted to try and give them their shot and really see what i could do with it bringing my
editing expertise over into it and i did that for i think almost a year i was streaming i
streamed pretty much almost every day from february 2018 till december 2018. how did that go
like streaming every day for a year you probably learn a couple things about like not only the
stream but about yourself because a lot of people say that it's very stressing that they have
to put on a
face every time they're online and when they do it every day it kind of
feels like they got like this some sort of identity crisis like getting like um a bit
mentally tired yeah not being themselves people have an online persona and a real life person and
a lot of people are really good at keeping that separated and it's really good for some people to
keep that separated for others um they're sort of exactly the same person as they are and for a
long time i was different people i was exactl
y someone in real life and i was exactly someone
else online um did that like i feel like i've definitely bridged that gap a lot especially in
the last year like i'm very much people think oh like this guy's that [ __ ] [ __ ] troll who like
does this wild [ __ ] and talk [ __ ] or whatever and it's like kind of crazy or whatever but he
would never say this to my face in real life and i think that's funny that yeah people actually
say that yeah i mean like i'm like no i'm kind of exactly th
is person in real life and i am you know
like over the last god this last year of my life has definitely been the craziest year of my life
um and i've definitely grown the most as a person from it just because just god has just been insane
but streaming every day yeah you do learn a lot from you know i do like i would do with a minimum
of four hours most most days i would do at least seven or eight though um that's a long time you
learned a lot yeah um it was fun i have a great following wh
en i announced people i was going
to start doing it again you know pretty much almost everyone who were part of like the main
clicket i saw every day immediately came back and were excited for it which is pretty crazy you can
take a like a year off from interacting with them then you say you're going to do it again and
everyone jumps back on board and is ready for it so that's that's pretty amazing honestly that's
pretty cool like uh that you actually have like a a community that you kind o
f build up that
still supports you even after this time yeah it's it's really encouraging um it's nice uh so i'm
looking forward to that i'm going to keep it in check this time though i'm not going to be doing
anything full time it was really stressful at the time because i had a really bad job and i wasn't
making a lot of money because i wanted to pursue creative stuff for like a year and see how hard i
could go into that and streaming was part of that but i wasn't making the right moves t
o make it
a sustainable thing for me at the same time so all those things sort of along with other stresses
in my personal life at the time everything kind of like came together to be too much and i had to
like step back from that and reevaluate things and there's a lot of time that people will spend not
just me but in general if you're not careful in making the internet something financially
sustainable for you at least financially then you could pass up a lot of things in your
life end u
p neglecting a lot of things irl uh if you're not careful it'll pass you by because time
flies man like i remember 2010 i'm going back and i've been talking this whole time about a bunch
of old head stuff you know and i feel like it was yesterday and right now as it is we're what is
it 27 days until 2020 yeah you know like a decade like i'm gonna blink and i'll be 30. and it hit
me one day that that's sort of like a realization that like like i'm gonna be like 25 soon i'll be
like 30 soon i
'm gonna be like 35 soon you know it's like because like 2015 was like two weeks ago
you know it's like [ __ ] just flies by and if you aren't making the right moves online you aren't
blowing up and making it a financial thing that's not always a bad thing to step back
reevaluate things and get your life together i'm in so much of a better position now because
i took that step to step back than if i just kept going and producing low quality content
and getting burnt out yeah you know you kn
ow like a really nice paying job i have a new car i
have my own house you know like i've i've secured myself in a position now where when i do pursue
creative things i have a nice personal safety net to fall back onto you know financials my needs
are always met you know i'm not stressing about bills or like all kinds of stuff you know that was
a big thing for me back then um but uh it allows you to focus and make higher quality content but
a lot you're blinded by like yeah just pursue your
dreams [ __ ] it bro like you know there's a
lot of blind encouragement that is really 50 50. there's a lot of blind encouragement but not a lot
of direction with that you know and the steps to pursuing your dreams might be to take a step back
um there was something that my great-grandfather said to uh said to my dad that really stuck with
me that he told me and it's kind of been like a personal motivation for me for many years um and
that's well my dad's upbringing was like pretty rough hi
s parents his dad was kind of a piece of [
__ ] and like really didn't like approve anything he did like any time he had no idea he'd be like
that's [ __ ] why would you do that blah blah blah you know so we had like no encouragement except
for his uh his grandfather and um one thing that his grandfather told him that he told me was um if
you never risk anything you'll never lose anything which you'll never have any
more than you have right now and that's like been like ingrained in my head
i was like damn that's some like real [ __ ] and mike right now yeah yeah my great grandfather is
a multi-millionaire so like he has the financial credibility to back that statement like that up
um but you know that's something that my dad has lived his life by and looking at him and what he's
done it's uh it works out for you you know but his path has been kind of the same as mine it's
like it's all over the place it's taking steps back here and there for years but in the right
way you k
now um yeah because stuff like this i i feel like when people um i remember
being 20 at a school and being in like this this youth group type of thing where we
talk about our problems because i was like troubled yeah and um i i remember one of my fears
that i listed that that my teacher thought was kind of weird that i was 20 but i felt like i
had already filled doing what i wanted to do at that age and what she said was like yeah
but you're so young and i was like yeah but i'm not an edito
r i don't have a job uh school's
going bad like my life [ __ ] sucks right now um and i'm like i'm 25 right now and i and
i have all that now by going through like an extremely rocky road like i did some really
shitty work to land the job that i have now um but a lot of people get very discouraged
like get discouraged very easily i'd say by these inconveniences that actually may be signs
like you said like take a step back like relax take your time type thing like the alluring story
of yea
h i'm gonna be an artist i'll move to la and i don't care if i gotta live in a [ __ ] dump
with 15 other dudes and be starving every day but i'm gonna be making art and it'll pay off
like those are all really nice stories and some of my biggest inspirations and uh you know people
who did that but for every one of those for every one of those you know rick owens stuff like that
you know he's one of my biggest motivations to inspirations creatively but neil young but like
yeah for every one o
f those stories there's a thousand more that end up shitty you know like and
there's something they never talk about the ones no one hears about that that the dudes who go out
there and risk it all and [ __ ] fail and don't exactly because if you don't learn something
from that if you can't see this not working out and reevaluate things and do something
differently then you're going to just burn yourself out creatively you know there's not
going to be a big break where it blows up because y
ou're not going to be in the right head
space to make the work and then to act right once it does start going for you you know to actually
take advantage of the things given to you even in that moment and there's even more of those stories
you know people who do blow up and two years later they're either literally dead or creatively dead
publicly um yeah like i think a big personality was little peep exactly it's a very good example
you know like someone who got definitely like kid got take
n advantage of uh creatively i feel
like too um i don't know if you've watched the documentary about him yet but i haven't yet but
i probably will soon but yeah it's really shitty and it paints the documentary paints goth boy
click as being like a bad influence on him and if you know anything about what actually happened
transpired between everyone who was actually there you'll know it was almost entirely his management
which was the cause of his death damn um and his mom's suing them right
now his management
for that um but you know that happened back in 2017 it's 2019 almost 20 20 20 now and um
that's not an uncommon thing you know once once once you do get to the point where you're going
up you know everyone wants a piece that you're a part of but if you're not gonna keep the right
people around if you're not ready to be in that kind of headspace even if you think you are
it'll swallow you up you know even if it's an accidental overdose on fentanyl the amount
of [ __ ] za
nz he was doing up until that point was crazy because the fact that management was
getting him all that stuff and pushing him out on stage all the time i don't know if you know part
of the reason he was taking some of that [ __ ] on instagram live was the insurance would cover the
show because he didn't want to perform because it was like the [ __ ] 20th show like or something
like he had done like every night or whatever or something that's part of that management's tour
and uh they said i
f you just take a bunch of drugs the insurance will cover it because they'll see
like yeah you can't go on stage because that yeah that was part of exactly stuff like that um but
that scales to all levels you know that's like as silly as being an amv editor talking about
that kind of stuff it's like scales in general professionals people who want to do creative
stuff professionally it's like you have to know how to maneuver your way there and it's not always
a straight line and pretty much
everything you do in life is never going to be a straight
line so if you're always looking for that you're probably not going to find it and you're
going to be wasting years trying to find it yeah like um that the stuff that i've been doing for
the past three years included um like i said like working at a mcdonald's which which barely got me
uh because because i was living with my parents um but i will say like before i go into this
like i made very risky decisions that ended up being good
decisions because i kind of like
powered through them so it went from like i was living in the netherlands or like born and
raised netherlands i have turkish parents like very strict parents and i was at at some point
i'm just working at this [ __ ] mcdonald's i'm like i need to get the [ __ ] out of here um and i
moved to germany um which is like right next to it uh and you know i was here with my
girlfriend and i worked in like a factory uh i didn't know the language i didn't
know anyon
e i just knew my girlfriend and i worked at a factory for
like two years and it was very like if [ __ ] with my head i can definitely say
that because i was like i know who i am i know what i am capable of but here i am packing some
boxes um but throughout that entire throughout those two years i learned the language i applied
for agencies i did small jobs for them for free like that's definitely a big thing where i got
this job i did a lot a lot of [ __ ] for free and then once i got the h
ang of the language i um
applied for an agency that the the one i'm working at now and i probably stalked them for like three
months until they [ __ ] took me because like i i can see now like my boss is someone
who really avoids like new people he's kind of like our company's good but we we
need someone but we're not sure and i was like yo [ __ ] take me man and now i got a position there
but that took like three years of uh just hell to get there which was very risky you know yeah i
don'
t really uh i don't really recommend it but if you are on that rocky road right now like
definitely don't like don't give up honestly don't give up don't give up but don't lose
perspective yeah during those three years like like for myself like i can really say that
i kind of at some points i was like i didn't really know who i was anymore like i really got
um because i'm around people that don't speak my language and i don't speak theirs it's like
you're really just alone there with yourse
lf um and with a lot of creative people that are for
example not necessarily um in an area where they don't speak with others but where they're
in their own head with their own ideas and are around people they can't talk to about it
you kind of get like a bit messed up in the head or yeah it is possible that that happens you know
i'm sure everyone listening knows plenty of people online like that and that's exactly why they're
online oh yeah definitely yeah that's a big thing too like i've
always like definitely felt
isolated in real life from people uh just like just the mentalities about a lot of things just
not matching up um and uh you know i i'm sure that a lot of people i know on in online but in the amv
community specific you know suffer from depression and like just like a weird thing of like i'm not
a weird thing but just like a myriad of of mental deficiencies or illnesses and stuff afflictions
things like that yeah um i forgot i was gonna go with this but uh yeah t
hat's not it's it's
pretty prevalent just amongst creatives in general you know and you can like i i funnel a lot of
that into my work some of my best work you know editing wise in general so my best videos uh were
made when i felt like i was about to [ __ ] like kill myself for something you know like i'm just
like nah i'm just gonna edit this video like i'll focus into this or whatever but i was like on the
edge of like about to [ __ ] just off myself or something but you know but you can
see that kind
of emotion funneled into the editing too like the video at least it means that to me personally
but other people can even like see it and it definitely comes through and just like any form
of art you know music or painting whatever it is you can you can put your emotions into the to
the art itself um i i think there was a guy that did that with a guran lagann video called the
age of spiralism yeah go to ganks uh christian man i used to really type with him um he kind
of did
that video was amazing the earth but that's that was that i remember that remember
that video got released i have a couple of betas of that i'm like an old hard drive somewhere he
sent me um but uh yeah yeah that was that's a pretty emotional there's a lot of amvs like that
too where like i'm watching it and it means a lot to me because of the personal time in my life so
i associate both that amv and that song with it you know you ever have that like you hear a song
and it's like oh [ __ ]
i'm 14 again like in an instant oh yeah like i'll i'll just scroll all
the way back up on my or back then i didn't even have like an online platform like spotify like
i still have the same music folder that i used to have back in the day um and i just sort that by
date and i just go down i'm like holy [ __ ] like i still use the the zune music player app uh when
i was a kid i didn't have an ipod i had a zoom oh my god on your computer the
sync music to it you had to like use like the weird
program but i got so accustomed
to it like literally it's just like 2009. i got a gross grown so accustomed to that that like
that's the only thing i'll use to play music still on my computer like i don't i don't i don't have
a spotify account well actually i do but it's like an artist account i don't even use it to like
listen to [ __ ] it's just to upload stuff on um but uh i use the zoom music player app to listen
to stuff and it's so shitty but it's like what i've been using for literal
ly 10 years now i i
think i've been paying for spotify for the past seven years as a service so i have this playlist
that has over a thousand songs since i made it and then when i go all the way back you legit
like if you were to like scroll down and you know you can also sort it or like you can see
the genres you can legit see my music taste just changing as you scroll you just go down you're
like okay it goes from like punk rock it's like metal death metal and then there's like rap in
th
ere and it's like it starts being really weird and even now it's like um i i start adding songs
from nh i think that's his name oh yeah any any annie i just call him annie and
eight's just one h one c another h we uh all right i think we should wrap this
up is he dming you to shut the [ __ ] up i no i can't really talk about them but it's not all right um he's not even here
no he's not he's definitely just fell asleep he's just there yeah just a couple of gifts and he
passed out sucking on
his thumb right there he's not here he thinks he's messaging he's here that's
not him that's not even him no that's just corey zola's icon yeah corey so uh we'll actually find
out if cory is going to be on the next episode that would be pretty fun we should we should you
and me should definitely do another episode we're definitely going to do another episode yeah man i
feel like i just went through like a time capsule because we talked about so much [ __ ] that we
uh actually remember happe
ning back in the day yeah i think i have a lot more so we should
definitely say it for another episode exactly yeah um what's your are what are
what are you on or what's yours do you are you still active on youtube do you have anything
uh yeah i i'll i'll upload every now and then um my name is golden shinigami
which is a name i regret making yeah it's funny because that used to be a
backup account when backup accounts were a thing oh yeah i mean it's still better than
muffin amv so guys b
efore i get deleted please but uh you're still active on there though
so you upload um every now and then but it's nothing i'm like nothing i'm really passionate
about like i i i added so much now in like my personal life like professionally that when i
come home i don't even want to touch this stuff but i do still do stuff from you know time to time i'm very very inconsistent that's most people
listening that's fine um thank you for calling you guys out i'm not i'm not um you could
find me
youtube.com user muffinamv or you can see me in the link below you go by osnv
now um yeah uh catch my stream twitch.tv osnv i'll be streaming again at least three days a week
probably coming up soon sometime in december uh yeah there's my there's my plugs also that we
didn't talk about at all i'm sure everyone's expecting it still but i do have an ep coming
out early next year i finally record everything everything's being mixed everything's recorded um
so that's it i spent the last year m
aking music uh so that we'll save talking about that from
their time i suppose i don't know hold on when you release it scripting part two oh my god
he's scripting part two scripting ever coming part two of a scripting series is coming i
keep redoing the writing on it so nothing exists of it right now i have an idea of what
it is in my head i recorded dialogue for it uh or i guess the part of the voiceover for it
like like a half month ago probably now and uh i didn't like where it was so i
want to get in a
place where it's where i want it to be and where it's good enough for the people who deserve
to hear it so it is coming 2020 it's coming right you can't take that back now
i just said 2020 man i could do i could i could do december 30th not fair
enough all right so it's 2020 it's coming boys all right man uh i actually had a lot of fun
doing this so thank you for coming on the podcast i think we're definitely going to do a part
two when we find another date again absolute
ly this was really fun it was to be great thanks
for listening guys have a good one peace out you
Comments
gay
This was a very interesting and dope podcast to listen to. I didn't think that there would be AMV podcasts. Definitely subscribing.
Grew up in this community watching both of your guys' edits. To hear a long-form reflective convo years later is pretty amazing. Good shit
"new blue s_shake"
cool life advice thanks heroin man
amazing episode, great host and great guest. had me interested and intrigued in everything they had to say, love it :)
the limewire throwback baby get those 20 megabyte episodes in you
Dope to hear two old school guys just reminiscing about the early days lmao
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rip corey
OwO
Muffin
You couldnt tell anyone u were an editor it was super gay back then!!
My man corey 😔🙏
Content.AVI
poor corey
Just do heroin
how he manage edit more then 10 years and still be no name