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hey everybody welcome back to my channel quality Reactions where we're gonna do yep another quality reaction my name is Jenna I'm an actor a twitch streamer a music enthusiast and of course as we all know by now a professional shower singer today on the channel we're going to be listening to and reacting to NF Mansion now he has been highly recommended so this has been a long time coming this song I looked up is the title track from his first major label album yes I know that he had EPS before a

nd he is an American rapper singer songwriter producer I also know you're supposed to listen to his songs in a certain order and this is the one that was recommended to me so hopefully this is the right one to listen to First before we jump in I also wanted to say that I've been having trouble with YouTube buffering and so I'm going to rewind after I pause so I don't miss anything on any future videos okay without further ado let's do this Insidious is fun Inception what's reality with all these

questions it feels like I missed my alarm and slept in slept in broken legs but I chase Perfection these walls are my blank expression my mind is a home I'm trapped in and it's lonely inside this mansion you're my mind is a house with walls covered in lyrics they're all over the place the songs in the mirrors written all over the floors all over the chairs and you get the uncut version of life when I go downstairs I swear I'll write when I'm in a bad place I need to release and let out the vers

ion of NF you don't want to see I put holes in the walls with both of my fists till they bleed you might get a glimpse to high court with all this anger in me physically abused now that's the room that I don't want to be in that picture ain't blurry at all I just don't want to see it and these walls ain't blank I just think I don't want to see them but why not I'm in here so I might as well read them I gotta thank you for the singer that I carry around wish I could take a magic burning Soul room

to the ground matter of fact congratulations you'll always room in my mind but Imma keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside [Music] well there is a lot to him back there there's so much to unpack there right from the beginning when flurry I believe was singing my mind is a home I'm trapped in and it's lonely inside this Mansion yes I I'm I was already I'm in because me too I feel like that is true for so many people like getting trapped in your own brain with your own thoughts can be so o

verwhelming and so isolating sucks um when he said that the when he was talking about the bar when he was physically abused it is obviously gut wrenching to hear that about somebody's past but I think that when you can be brave enough and vulnerable enough to share that experience it's so impactful because like it's as shitty as it is it's not it's not a soul experience you know like it's not one it's not it's not just happening to one person it's a it's unfortunately something that happens to a

lot of people and it just that is like the coolest thing about art is that sharing your truth and something that you feel you might be alone in is not true it's totally like a shared Human Experience that lots of people have had and it it just knowing that other people have had the same feelings and thoughts and experiences is so I don't know connecting empowering even um because it just makes you feel not alone and I I just think it's it's so awesome when um an artist feels you know strong eno

ugh to write about their experience and share it with people so that was that was so impactful um later on when he said congratulations you'll always have a room in my mind but I'ma keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside I feel like even if you can't you know relate to that that physical abuse trauma that he's obviously talking about it is such a that it can be such a universal thing for any kind of trauma just trauma man trauma it shapes you it it definitely like scars you and totally sh

apes your world view your you know it changes your thoughts your experiences how you see the world it's it's crazy um it's crazy how experiences can do that differently for everybody but it definitely affects you um and it feels like you know you'll always have a room in my mind is like you've yeah you've you've shaped me you've what you did to me has now affected me and that it will carry on throughout my life with how I see people and interact with people and my emotional experiences and yeah

heavy heavy stuff let's keep going come on but I'm gonna keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside Insidious is blind Inception what's reality with all these questions feels like I missed my alarm and slapped inside broken legs but I chase Perfection these walls are my blank expression my mind is mansion [Music] one of the first things [Music] and I regret watching these trust issues eat me alive and at the rate I'm going I'd probably still be there when I die congratulations you'll always h

ave a room in my mind the question is will I ever clean the walls off inside [Music] no what did I get myself into with this song um okay wow I just okay see my problem is I don't fix things I just try to repaint cover them up like it never happens say I wish I could change compartmentalizing I just like it it's so it's so cool how art can be completely informed by your own experience and yet everybody can derive their own meaning behind what you're saying like try you know you're just it's you

ever it's like everybody I feel like can relate to that you know instead of like facing your problem head on and trying to deal with it it's so easy to just say I'm gonna put it over here and just kind of hope that it goes away or hope that this like thing will fix it even though you know it won't I also think you know I don't know I don't know enough at all obviously or like his background or anything but it kind of feels like he's trying to say with the lyrics you know like saying I wish I cou

ld change it's kind of like he knows he knows like that his past experiences have [ __ ] him up and that instead of dealing with that and trying to I don't know overcome it or change the [ __ ] that he doesn't like that he's you know just trying to repaint it and then being like I wish I wish things were different but they're not and I'm not dealing with it which you know I also think Universal it's a universal feeling their rooms full of regrets it just keeps getting Fuller it seems the moment

I walk into it's the same moment that I want to leave regrets yeah that's that that's just that speaks for itself I also think the part oh gosh where he said one of the worst things I wrote on these walls was the moment I realized I was losing my mom one of the first things I wrote was I wish I could I wish I would have called I don't know what his relationship is with his mom or anything but just from those two lines it it feels like it was strained and that was a major regret was not repairing

that or showing up or calling uh I regret the fact that I struggled trying to find who I am and I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can dude same I mean I feel like I struggle to find who I am daily I don't know I feel like that's like a constant struggle that might just be like a life struggle I don't know do you ever really know who you are I feel like it changes so much based on experiences in your life and and yeah and you're not alone there he's not alone there um I regret watchin

g these trust issues eat me alive at the rate I'm going they'll probably still be there when I die I mean I feel like maybe I don't know but I feel like when he wrote that that might have been true at the time but I really feel like recognizing that you have trust issues and that they're really messing up your life or your your experiences with people is the first step to res is the first step to to getting on the journey to resolving that so I hope they're not there until he dies it seems like

the song the songs is like very reflective but also it feels kind of therapeutic like saying it out loud is the first step to like admitting admitting all these things that are going on in his mind yeah okay let's keep going the question is will I ever clean the walls off inside Insidious is blind Inception what's reality with all these questions [Music] Perfection these walls are my blank expression my mind is mansion [Music] so this part of my house no one's been in it for years I built the sa

fe room and I don't let no one in there because if I do there's a chance that they might disappear and not come back and I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside so I just leave my doors locked you might get other doors to open up but this door's not cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me and I'll be the only person that I can blame when you deserve me I'm barricaded inside so stop watching I'm not coming to the door so stop knocking stop here yeah but it's not I'm

not the only thing that's living in here beer came to my house years ago I let them in maybe that's a problem cause I've been dealing with this ever since I thought that he would leave but it's obvious he never did he must have picked a room and got comfortable and settled in now I'm in a position it's either sit here and let them win I put him back outside where it came from but I never can cause in order to do that I'd have to open the doors is that me or the fear talking I don't know anymore

please [Music] tell this mansion well um I built a safe room and I don't let no one in there because if I do there's a chance that they might disappear and not come back uh that's like again I just keep saying how Universal it is but it is it's like there's a part inside each of us that we maybe are afraid to let other people see because you know for the fear of rejection or not being loved or not being good enough or like sharing parts of yourself are scary especially the parts where you are e

specially past trauma you know that is especially hard to share with people like letting people know how deep it runs or how how it's really affected you that's so tough because you do feel like you know No One's Gonna Get Me No One's Gonna understand this and it's safer to just you know lock that away and not let anybody see that part of yourself but then you're never truly being seen and that's like one of the most beautiful things in life is when somebody really sees you and and loves you you

know despite all your scars and and Imperfections um I also love that he said I'm emotionally scared to let anyone inside so I just leave my doors locked so vulnerable to to admit that that's what you're doing and also like the first step to Healing that part of yourself is admitting that you have that block I don't know if a lot of people can admit that they do that you know that they're purposely shutting people out to keep themselves safe I feel like that acknowledging that you are doing tha

t is is the first step towards healing that that issue um the part where he said I know that shutting the world out ain't solving the problem but I didn't build this house because I thought it would solve them I built it because I thought that it was safer in here but it's not I'm not the only thing that's living in here huh again like if I could write lyrics to any extent um it's so cool how how Universal I feel like a lot of what he's saying is even though it's so personal I know I said this t

hroughout but it is it's it's just it's so I don't know makes you feel really connected to this artist because fear is such a is something that everybody deals with and it is in literally ever of every aspect of everything and now I'm in a position it's either sit here and let him win or put him back outside where he came from but I never can because in order to do that I'd have to open the doors is that me or the fear talking I don't know anymore it is like you don't know what is sometimes you

can't tell what is your own true voice and what is like that nagging part of your brain that is fear telling you something that's totally untrue I don't know like mental health mental health is such a huge thing and I'm so glad it's way more talked about now I can't even believe that there was a time when it wasn't so universally spoken about because it's something that we all deal with in some respect and the fact that it's just you do you get you get this weird voice inside your head that feel

s like it is you but it's not like it's it feels like it's telling you things that are so untrue and it's really hard to decipher um what is like anxiety and depression and you know and not so that is that is such a universal message for me and I think I can just see why people really recommended NF and why people really seem to connect with him as an artist because he's literally laying out everything about himself I loved that that was great I can't wait to listen to more buy him it's gonna be

yeah I'm excited about it um sorry if that was too much for you guys that was a lot of talking that was a lot of thoughts but it was a very heavy video hmm thanks for sticking around thanks for hanging out with me don't forget to subscribe so you guys know when more is coming your way also if you like this video don't forget to give it a thumbs up as always I'll link my Twitch down below in the info if you want to come over there and hang out with me when I'm live and if not I guess I'll see yo

u guys in the next one peace [Music] [Applause] [Music] thank you [Music]