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00:00 Pattern of Abuse
1:00 Physical Fragility
2:19 Style Vs. Ego
3:00 Difficulty Growing Up
5:30 Biggest Insecurity
7:14 Jackass Rock Bottom
9:43 Sex Addiction
12:35 Better Help Sponsor
13:41 Meeting My Fiancé Lux
14:12 Admitting When You’re Wrong
16:56 Asking Lux When I Last Cried
18:03 Aging Insecurity
19:46 Proud of Who I’ve Become
20:56 Man Enough
- Once I had a foundation in sobriety, I found myself really
acting out sexually a lot. I developed this pattern
where I would meet a woman and become infatuated with her and I would pour on the charm. And then like, once she fell for me, then I would just ghost. Not only was I not treating
them the way that I want to be treated, I was
actually treating them specifically the way I most
fear being treated myself. I promised myself I'm not
gonna act out anymore, and I just couldn't. It was just an
endless cycle of shame. - This episode of "What's
Underneath Masculinity" is made possible with the
support of BetterHelp. If you wanna start therapy,
give BetterHelp a try and head to betterhelp.com/whatsunderneath for 10% off your first month. - [Interviewer] I just wanna begin by just really thanking
you for being here. For most people, it's not an easy ask, but I know for you it, it's
maybe a little bit easier and this is why we're so
excited to have you here. - More difficult than one migh
t imagine. I'm gonna be very
self-conscious about my figure, but I'm not letting that hold me back. - [Interviewer] Can you
just begin by talking about how you're feeling right now? - I'm feeling like every day a new part of my body is complaining. It's relatively new to
have pain and discomfort without an injury causing it. I hate to say this, but I feel fragile. I feel fragile because I have a fear of my deteriorating appearance
making me unlovable. I feel that I won't look
as good as I once d
id. And that's okay, man, I'm gonna rock it. - [Interviewer] Can you take
off maybe the glasses first and then we'll do the jacket next? - Okay, I am tempted to
see if I can balance them. There we go, cool. Yeah, it says something I
learned in clown college. - [Interviewer] Can you
talk a little bit about what your style says about you? - For the most part, my style says that I do all my shopping at
Target, with the exception of course, of this cool jacket, which I picked up at a thrift
store in
, I think Michigan. I don't like to be flashy in general. I derive my self-esteem and my pride and all the ego stuff from
what I do, not what I have. And I'm really into what I do. Like I want people to think I'm badass. So like, the one thing I like about cold weather is I
get to wear this baby. - [Interviewer] Can you talk a little bit about the assumptions
that you think people make about you based on your appearance? - My father said, "The world
is full of people, dumb people who try to look
smart
and fall on their ass." He says, "Steve, I think is
actually really intelligent, but he does a great job of looking stupid and I think that's why
he's been successful." 'Cause it was always like a
really guarded secret almost that I wasn't so dumb. - [Interviewer] Why do
you think that you wanted to make yourself look stupid? - It was very clear to me that
I was not very well equipped to keep a normal job, just like lacking the
basic survival skills to navigate the world. I dropped outta
college and I just thought, "Oh man, like I'm gonna become a
crazy famous stuntman." And everybody who I told this plan to felt genuinely sorry for me. Like it was just a tragedy
what a loser I was. No plan B, no net to fall
on and I just went for it. One thing I really loved
was the video camera and I thought if I really
videotaped crazy enough stuff, then that video footage would outlive me. So the video camera was
like a religion for me. This was like my afterlife,
this was immortality. When
I was attending Ringling
Brothers and Barn & Bailey Clown College in 1997. And I was in this marine
biologist's apartment just drinking, and I told
her, "We're all gonna die. We're all gonna be dead, but I've got these videos
that are gonna live forever." She said, "You know what, how about this? If I do my job and a fish nibbles on a coral reef that I was able to
preserve, I'm still alive. I live forever, it's
just not all about you." So everybody's got their
own way to have a legacy and to aff
ect change, and mine is just particularly
self-absorbed and ego-driven. And that's okay. (interviewer laughing) - [Interviewer] Can you talk
about the biggest insecurity that you're working on overcoming or maybe recently have worked on? - One that I've really made a
lot of progress with has to do with my pursuit of a
career in standup comedy. And when I decided to do that, I was not necessarily
welcomed into that world. Like, did it feel good to be rejected? No, but did I turn around
and say fu
ck everybody and put it out by myself
and find success doing that? Yeah and ultimately I put
together this whole show called "The Bucket List". At that point, I finally
felt like I belonged on a stage performing comedy. I'm not waiting for permission
from some asshole in a suit to green light my project
and gimme a budget. And that's the digital revolution, which is a double-edged sword. Like every piece of content
just has right on there, public facing, like how well it performed. And it's so t
ricky to not get tied to that with your self-esteem. What became very clear
to me is that I've got to find separation between who I am and the persona of Steve-O. And so in order for me to be like happy and fulfilled in my later years, I knew I had to figure out
how to find a life partner who can be by my side
as I weather the storm of becoming an aging attention whore. - [Interviewer] So was
there like a rock bottom in your journey that led you to this realization that you needed to separate St
eve-O the persona
from the rest of yourself? - I would point to the premiere of our second movie "Jackass" in 2006, and we were taking the biggest risks. We were doing the craziest stuff
and everything just worked. It was like, just magic. I knew we were never gonna beat that, and I just felt like, whew,
it's all downhill from here. And I remember going to that premiere and feeling like I was at my funeral. I stepped onto that red carpet and I was just mad at that red carpet because it was like
the end, like we were all like more
out of control with drugs and alcohol and sex than
like, can he even be believed? I had like major trauma around my mom who had suffered
an aneurysm and survived it, but heinously disabled both
physically and mentally, and it was like suffering
that shouldn't exist. I mean, I just like felt very angry at any God that would
allow that to happen. Everything got like tremendously dark. In one week, I was arrested for
a felony cocaine possession. I got evicted, I
sent
this mass email saying that Johnny Knoxville
better bring a hot tub so I can jump out of this window into the hot tub next door. And if you don't come,
then I'm jumping anyway, I'm ready to die. That email qualified me
for California's 5150 law, which meant they could lock
me up in a psychiatric ward. And that's when Johnny Knoxville and the "Jackass" guys
staged an intervention on me. And yeah, I've been clean
and sober ever since then. This is my cool hat from Tony Hawk. But I can't reall
y describe all the pain 'cause there was so much of it, but I can't say that the solution to my problems I found in recovery. And once I had a foundation in sobriety, I found myself really
acting out sexually a lot. I started touring the comedy clubs. So I would do this meet
and greet after every show, and that meet and greet
was a glorified audition to find a partner to
act out with that night. I developed this pattern
where I would meet a woman and become infatuated with her. I'd really think,
"Oh,
she's the greatest." And I would believe that and
I would pour on the charm and then like, once she fell for me, then like a light switch, I
would like lose interest in her. I would just ghost and like,
I would feel so terrible about myself after doing that because not only was I not
treating them the way that I want to be treated, I was
actually treating them specifically the way I most
fear being treated myself. It was just like using people
up and throwing them away and I knew exactly w
hat
a piece of shit I was. It was just an endless cycle of shame. I promised myself I'm not
gonna act out anymore, and I just couldn't. I started seeing a sex therapist and that person ultimately
recommended that I go into a outpatient sex addict
rehab, and I did that. And the way it works with
sex is that each addict will define their own sexual sobriety. Meaning that for one sex addict, porn could be perfectly
fine when for another, like serious no go. So you make a list of red light behaviors
where anything on that
list constitutes a relapse. For me, like massage
parlors, super red light, being in a strip club was a red light. I had some starts and stops
and some and stumbles, but ultimately when I got
outta that sex addict rehab, they recommended a period of celibacy between like maybe 30 and 90 days. And I was just like, I
ended up going 431 days because I felt strongly
that my mission was to become the man that the
love of my life deserves. - We know you're really gripped
by the
story you're hearing, but we just wanted to interrupt
this episode very quickly to tell you a little bit about our incredible sponsor BetterHelp. - So, Lils, how do you feel about therapy? - I don't know what I
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- Visit betterhelp.com/whatsunderneath for 10% off of your first month. That's betterhelp.com/whatsunderneath for 10% off your first month. - And now back to the episode. - I met Lux on a job. We went on a bunch of dates. We didn't like kiss for over a month and I was like fully transparent and explained to her that
I was really coming in with a terrible track
record for relationships and yeah, we just did
everything correctly. How long - [Interviewer] How long
have you been together? - We've b
een together for
approaching seven years. Never once doubted for a fucking second that I want to be with her. - [Interviewer] When was the last time that you like made a mistake, like feel like you caused
harm to someone that you love? - I can't even believe
that I did this too. Like what a fucking shitty thing. I've got this editor,
unbelievably talented dude, his name's Paul Brisske, but he has his like music career and he's just got this like
wanderlust where he wants to be like anywhere in t
he world except working on my stuff. And so it's like, ugh,
on top of paying Paul for all of his hours of
work, I give him a percentage of my ad revenue from YouTube. I want him to participate in
what we're building together, but at a certain point
he's fucking in one country and the next country and I'm having to work with this other editor and I feel like I'm banging
my head against the wall because this guy doesn't
know what he's doing. I mean, he's a good
editor, but he's not Paul, Paul's no
t even making the video and he's gonna get the percentage
of the AdSense revenue. I'm like, no, I can't do it. And so the next time a
commission statement came up from my bookkeeper, I was like, "No, no, no, we're hacking it." But I didn't tell Paul, just like, ah, and like there were so many
times it occurred to me and I just somehow didn't
have the balls to tell him. Finally, like recently
I was like, "Hey dude, I did you dirty," and I made
him whole in one lump payment. - [Interviewer] Did yo
u
say I'm sorry or what? - Yeah, well, I mean, you
don't wanna say I'm sorry because it's more of an,
"I want to acknowledge that I was wrong and
try to make it right." On our ninth step, where it says we made
amends wherever possible. The word amends, it means to fix, like it's a huge deal because
the overwhelming majority of people like will not
admit that they were wrong. - [Interviewer] Right.
- Even when they're so wrong, it's like their ego just
refuses to compromise itself by admitting wr
ongdoing. And that's so backwards
because when you do step up and admit that you were wrong,
people respect you, man. So it's like the attention
whore kid who's like, "I'm gonna live forever
'cause I've got rad videos," is still that same attention whore, but he's just kind of learning from that marine biology
person, like taking to heart what that person said that
was of tremendous value. - [Interviewer] When was
the last time you cried? - Man, I wish I knew. I'm not being macho here, trying to
pretend like I
don't cry all the time, okay? I'm tempted to ask Lux
when's the last time I cried? Am I allowed to do that? - [Interviewer] Sure.
- Cool. (phone ringing) - [Lux] Hey babe.
- Hey babe. - [Lux] My love. - Honey, when was the last time I cried? - [Lux] When Bern Bern passed. - Ah, yeah, my dog Bernie died. I mean, he was just old. - [Lux] The nature of what we do, honey, taking care of babies, it's so awesome and we love it, but then they pass and that fucking sucks. - Yeah.
- [Lux]
You look so handsome. - Oh, thank you baby. (laughing) - You look like you just woke
up and you're so beautiful. - [Lux] Aw, thank you baby, love you. - All right, love you too, okay bye. - What is your favorite and least favorite part of your body? - I mean, when I was in my twenties, I had a fucking rad body. I spent so much time doing acrobatics and like I could like walk up
and downstairs on my hands. So I just had like this super toned, like chiseled, muscular physique. I mean, if anything
, if I
have like body insecurity, it's just comparing to
a younger version of me. But you're right, it's silly. I didn't get to where I am
because I'm a sex symbol. Like I've never been a pinup, and then Lux and I had each other to say, "Stop being mean to the love of my life." Yeah, she'll be mean to herself and I'll tell her that, "You will not treat the
love of my life that way." - [Interviewer] Aww.
- And she'll say that to me too. - [Interviewer] Yeah, you
can take off your pants. - Alright
. I definitely get
unreasonably self-conscious when I see photos with
wrinkles and gray hair and I struggle with
that more than I should. And I think because my
identity is kind of tied up in really, adolescence, like I do like silly
childish shit for a living. So I feel like for me it's
not permissible to get old. (laughing) All right, how about that? - [Interviewer] Iconic. - Why in your body, in
your skin, in your journey, why is it a good place to be? - It's great to be in my skin because I
don't have any secrets. I like who I am, I'm proud
of how I live my life. Yeah, I'm just proud of who I've become. We really have the
responsibility to assign to our life meaning, to find
something that we're passionate about and pursue it to the point where being in our body
is the ultimate privilege. - [Interviewer] Tooth?
- Yeah, yeah. Be careful with that guy. I'm profoundly grateful to
have found meaning in my life. Okay, I'm just gonna let
it ride right on the floor. About which I'm passio
nate
and not just pursuing it, but until the fucking wheels fall off. (buzzer whirring) All right. I think we can live with that. All right.
- [Interviewer] Beautiful. - Thank you.
- [Speaker] Let's do it again. - [Speaker] That's incredible,
that's so impressive. - Thank you. - [Interviewer] Last question,
what does it mean to you to be man enough? - I don't know that I
assign any particular value to traits like for men over women. Like if you've got
integrity, if you're honest and you hold you
rself
accountable, then no matter who you are, that's the
most important thing. That's it and that's not
just male, that's like human. - [Interviewer] How do you feel now? - I feel good, I feel like
everybody really needs to see how fucking awesome this
multimedia comedy special is at steveo.com. - [Interviewer] Okay. - Like, hands down.
- [Interviewer] I cannot wait. - The best fucking thing I've ever made. - [Interviewer] Okay, cannot wait. - Yeah. - Thank you for tuning
into this week's episo
de of "What's Underneath Masculinity" with Steve-O in partnership
with Man Enough. - Yeah, dude. And for more episodes just like this, subscribe to StyleLikeU. - And don't forget to click the
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you can do whatever you want. - Sure, let's do it. (blowing kisses)
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"I felt that my mission was to become the man that the love of my life deserves" - Ok SteveO that's beautiful
The growth of this man is truly amazing.
as much as i love you all, im super disapointed to hear you being sponsored by better help. theyre a really unethical company that leaks client info to third parties, steals profile info from real therapists, and overall does not satisfy the requirements for ethical care. If you stand behind therapy, better help is not hte way to do it.
How cool to see Steve-O speaking so candidly like this. I grew up watching them, went to the theaters in 2006 to watch the movie premiere with my high school friends, some of which are no longer here with us. Sweet memories ❤
This is the interview that made me see Steve-O in another light. His vulnerability is attractive. I grew up during the JA years and it’s admirable to see the Man he has become. I hope he is proud of the tremendous hard work he has done to change his life. Wishing him and Lux all the best. 💜
I'm doing a year of celibacy after coming to the realization I was a sex and love addict. Awesome representation!
He focuses on his youth but he doesnt have to. Being candid, responsible, open and honest, and self-aware is what makes you a successful adult. He's already got all that going on. He doesn't need to stress the rest
His love for his wife is sooo amazing!
Absolutely adore Steve-o and this episode. Being in recovery myself, I look up to his ability to be honest with how he truly feels about himself and share his growth.
Steve-o, I know you’re concerned about aging but we’re all just so stoked you’re still with us! Your evolution is truly incredible.
He actually looks better than ever and some age looks great on him, both phisically and personality wise
I think Steve-o's dad was right on the money, he's a brilliant man and it's taken a long time for him to really hit the pace that suits his intellect and it shows now that he's becoming the human he wants to be.
For some reason I’ve never thought I’d see Steve O on this channel, but I love it!
HOLY SHit! This is quite possibly one of my favourite YouTube videos of all time (and I've been an avid youtube partaker since 2006). Incredibly profound; a superb example of good recovery and a beautiful spectacle of courage.
Steve-o and Mike the situation have gone from people who were globally unliked to very mature, wise men. Good to see him come full circle!
It's cool to see how he truly understands himself, he's not just mashing up random therapy-speak into sentences, he legitimately just understands himself
Steve O aged with wisdom grace and humility. He put in the hardest work getting sober and sticking to it. Love this guy so much. Met him a few years ago and he’s such a kind person
It is so awesome to see how well he is doing. He really has put in the work to better himself. His honesty is refreshing. I wish him the best.
This man is one of the biggest inspirations of my life. I would never have dreamed as a teen watching Jackass that I'd also be sober and rooting on Steve-O through HIS sobriety! What a beautiful thing. Protect this man.